Finally~~

Finally get the call from E-promote, they offered me a job in Cold Storage, 1 utama for this and next coming weekend. Hopefully I can do this job well, and other jobs that I asked for before will call me for work, because I really really needed money so badly. As I said before in my previous post- money is everything. Other than that, what I want to say is that I met a person in facebook-a female friend of Wayne(one of my college friends). I can't believe that there are another person who will make an little argument about existentialism in Wayne's status comment, really can't believe about it, haha. I wish that I can meet more and more people like that in facebook or perhaps in another way, because its really funny when we can find someone is willing to make argument to discuss about philosophy. haha !!

Unhappiness and happiness

According to Soloman, the King of Israel. all the unhappiness in us arise when we humans begins to question about this world and its problem. We will all feel unhappy sometime, unless we are not human being, but have we ever think why we will got that feeling?

Most common cases surround by us is we like to complaint about why we can gain more wealth, why we can't get smarter than other, and all this thought let unhappiness in our daily life. We are not God, that's why we shouldn't question about the world. We were all born with nothing, then what we have to insist on what we couldn't have in our life? Life is simple, humans need is also simple-foods, clothes and place to stay. We are the reason who caused war, killing, destruction on the Earth. Humans want to live peacefully with each other, but humans were the reason why humans can't live peacefully with each other. If we can control the urge in our mind, the hunger to get something which is not belong to us, happiness will be the only thing in our life.

Money, power and respect, who many people died from these. Happiness to someone maybe just 3 of that, (money, power and respect ) but that's not. People who looking for that will never get what we called true happiness, they will just loss more and more, and finally, unhappiness will be their friend. What is happiness? I also don't know and I still looking for that, perhaps I can realize it some day in the future, I will share with all of you.

Happy or unhappy?

We can choose to be happy or unhappy, because we are human being, we can control our feeling. Today, it's a unforgettable day to me, but I will not gonna tell you all what happened. Actually I didn't really feel so happy few days ago, I was stressed up and feel like nobody I could get myself into. But that's not the key make me feel unhappy, is because my lao po. Recently she doesn't looks like happy, like stressed up. I don't know why, I don't even dare to ask her, because I knew that she will let me know if she want to. Since tuesday, I realized that I must comfort her. When I saw her cried on that day, I felt guilt, I just can't do a damn single thing to stop her from crying. Last night, she told me everything. I think she just having too much stress on everything, our relationship and also her study. Actually she is really good girl, a very good student, a good gf. I think she is putting all the things on her own, that's why she stressed up like now, I wish I can comfort her, let her know that nothings have to be so stress or worry about that. All I want is see her smile like a baby again, but not crying like a baby, but no matter how she feel, I wish she could share with me and I just don't want to miss any part of her life.

Looking for job..

I needed a job, I needed money. I should attend to my job interview today, but so sad that doesn't. Actually I don't really want to attend for it since yesterday night, because the location is a bit too far to me. But I am not a foolish, this morning I sent a message to my friend to ask for a job. I didn't get any good news from her, what I get is just another bad news. The world is really smaller than I expected(doesn't really measured, just adjective) , the company she working is actually same as the one that I looking for. Unfortunately, she told me that the company not gonna hire any students for their jobs, my heart broken (just joking). Semester 2 is going to start on monday, about the work just temporary leave it behind, nothing is more important than study right now.

Friendship

I had one my my friends's blog, the title is about "time v.s friendship". She claimed that friends can't last long forever based on the environment we growth, people we met in our life or the way we thought. I have no doubt about that, because I don't I am a kind of person who will not put friendship on first place, and I don't even believe that we need a friend to share our grieve with us. To me, friends just mean people who can give you help when you need them, but not share our feeling with them, or care about them. Sounds cruel and selfish right? But have you really ask yourselves? When is the moment you will think about your friends? Moment when you having a great party? Or moment when your car broke down on the way you going back home? There are no BFF (best friend forever) exist in my life, or even a very good friend to share with. If you ever betrayed by someone, most probably you will say the same words I saying here. I ever heard a word in Chinese which mean "friends is use to betray", I believe deeply is this sentence. We are all human being, there is no doubt that we will betray each other. Humanism is darkness, everyone is selfish, so I suggest all of you don't fully trusted in anyone, no matter how good the person with you now, please keep some secrets for yourselves, otherwise, you will get hurt.

I believe facebook user is having too much free time

What I will say so? If you are a facebook user( I think most of the people are), then have you realize what people usually post on their status? Or what they comment in others? I can almost see those dumb ass's status and comment in facebook everyday, something like "good morning everyone","good night everyone" and more of it as their status. Some of that even dare to type "LOLX" as their status, WHAT THE HELL is on their mind, or they really having too much freedom? Compared to all this person, I think people who post video or telling their experience is much better, but they are still having too much free time. The reason why I would say so is because some experience they posted on facebook status wall really gonna let people get mad ( as I always feel that ), have you ever seen dumb ass post "I am hungry", "doing assignment" on their status? Perhaps it can called as dumb ass, then some people can even called as super dumb ass, they are those people who go to comment on those dumb ass's status. I ever seen some people comment to the status of "I am hungry" with "go eat la". I just like...What The Hell, they really think the person who post the status is retarded? They don't know go to eat when they were hungry? I don't know what they going to post on Facebook status is future, and I don't even have that guts to imagine it.

From freshmen orientation to final examination, unforgettable moments

The old woman inside the photo was my English lecturer, Madam Tan. Unfortunately, to day was our last day to attended to her English class, after today, I may not find other English lecturer like Madam Tan, the lecturer who really put a lot of afford to teach her students.

Time really ran so fast, don't realize that my first semester already reached the end, now just waiting to sit for final exam. Haiz ~~ Still remember the first day I attended to TAR College for the Freshmen Orietation, what a unforgettable moments, it's all valuable, and most probably will not happen again in our life anymore.

If you ask me the question "What have you learn in your first semester?" , most probably I will answer "the correct way to study and the right attitude in learning" . Honestly, I felt that I was failed, I have fail completely for being a college student, a son for my parents, and also a responsibility boyfriend for my girlfriend. I really don't think I have already try my best in this semester, besides that, my behavior is worse, as worse as a jerk. I felt shame about my behavior, I don't even want to let other people know how was my behavior in college.

Whatever, that's already a past tense in my life, useless to talking about it right here. What should I concentrate in right now is my final examination, because that's what on forward. I can't change what I did in the past, but I can make a difference in my final examination, perhaps I want to. I don't want to make anymore commentary right here, unless I do what I want to do, perhaps I really try my best to do what I should do for the final examination. Distinction? By logical, I don't think I can get it; But, by mentally, I really want to get it. I think, therefore I am.

Commentary about the world that I belongs to

After reading several number of books of philosophy, I think I'm already learned somethings from that, it's make my thinking became mature, my mind was opened widely. Maybe some of you will think that I was talking a cock and bull story here (in certain way I was) , but that's the reason why blog exist right? Perhaps it's not, then what for blog exist?

Recently I realized that the world we living in now is getting worse and worse, human became selfish, arrogance, self-centred, narcissistic and so on. Many of the younger generation may think that this is what we need to survive in this competitive world, it's not true at all. In the few decades in past, children will not cheat or lie to others, they can think maturely and behave as a child. But if we study about the children in now, we will be surprise, children in this generation used to cheat and lie to their parents, their friends. Some of the rich children even looking down of people who is poor even they are just a 5 years old child.

In my opinion, if we really want to change the world, to become a world which is healthy and harmony, we should do somethings. What we have to do is we have to give our new generation a positive thinking, we should let them think positively, but not just tell them what should they do. Parents should teach children in thinking, but not action, if we only tell them what to do and doesn't try to understand why they do so, we could not make children get better. In facts, it will make the situation getting worse.

Conclusion is, if we want the world get better, we should start from our thinking. We will not change the world to be better if we don't have the positive thinking and philosophy to being a human.

What's on my mind nowadays ??

What's in my mind nowadays? College's stuff? Girl friend? Money? Honestly , I don't really know what am I thinking, everything was just too messy on my mind, its just like things floated everywhere on my mind, messy, random and unpredictable .

I'm reading some books which is all about philosophy and existentialism nowadays, when I started to read, then only I realized that my thinking was too naive compared to those great thinker. What I thought in my past 18 years was only those facts that majority of people thinking, things that everyone knew and think with same ways.

What's wrote in philosophy's books were different, I dare to say it's completely different. In those books, I learned to think in other ways, think somethings that I've never expected before, learned what I can't learn in college, somethings that priceless.

Maybe some of you will thought that I'm talking nonsense here, I will not blame them, because that's exactly what am I doing right now. Since the first moment I started to type my blog here, I'm wasting my time, that's a fact that cannot be decline.

College's friends

Everything is changed since I start my college life .
New friends , new subjects , new environment and also new style of study.

Felt that my English language is better than before
Thanks to my English lecturer .....XD

Beside that ,
I would also like to talk about those new friends that I've met in TAR College
All GUYS !!

How about girls ?? Erm ~~
Don't feel like they are my friends lo...
LOLXXX

BUT ......
There's one thing that make me nervous ....
that's is my financial difficult ....

I didn't get PTPTN ... Why ??
Thanks to my STUPID ATTITUDE !!!
didn't open a Public Bank account earlier...
yoohoo ~~~

But I will not getting too worry about that in this moment ,
now just want study harder in my 1st semester
and....
enjoy the happiness... other than that ??
Just temporary ignore it la ~~~~

Unforgettable memory

Yesterday went to a carnival which is organized by Oscar Education center . Really had an unforgettable memory on it , I was very enjoy on it .

Actually I will went there is because my lao po has been hired to working at there , so of course I won't give up this golden chance to spend time with my lao po . So I woke up early in the morning than went to Oscar Education center there help my lao po to prepare all those things .

Yesterday woke up about 6:30a.m , wash face and changed clothes , then went to Jia Qi's house . When I reached Taman Megah , I bought some dim sum for my lao po's breakfast . After that , Jia Qi fetch us to the center ( she so nervous when driving ) . When we reached there , I've been helping them to prepare lo , like prepare those game for the kids . I felt so heartache when I knew lao po has to take care of the "game stall" under the sun =( so I also keep on company my lao po a , help her to play with those kids . Lao po , I knew you're not purposely treat me that cool want , you just concentrate on your work and don't want Oscar misunderstand only , I truly understand want .

I was really enjoy on it , especially when I playing with those kids . Hope can take part in this kind of event again

Enjoy !!

I really enjoy my recent life now , damn enjoy on it . Everything were going get better and better , especially the relationship between me and my lao po . Except this there's few other stuff that I was happy with that .

First , my driving lesson is going damn well , everything just going better than I thought . When I was driving , I really felt happy . And most happy is driving is much more easier that I thought , I think I can pass in once ..=) Hope so la .

Second , my "marriage" is getting better and better now , now I really felt that nothing can break us . Now I just wait for 4 years to graduate from collage>>working hard>>buy a house>>then propose to her . TIME !!! Move faster la !!!

Last , I'm going to start my collage soon , really can't wait to study there . I'll desire to study there not because of those girls at there or other , what's in my mind is only gain knowledge at there . I really wish that I could gain knowledge that really can bring me wealth in my future . Except this , I also can't wait to workout at the gym in collage . Really miss those workout feeling lo !!!

License Course

Is me .. hahaha

Lao po so cute !!! muaxx muaxx

Act cute

Nice smile

lao po !!!

Today went to listen a course about the driving license , really so hot lo . But I really felt so enjoy during the course . Why ??

Haha !! The answer is.........

Because I met my lao po , 1 month didn't meet leh , miss her like hell lo ...
She became prettier and prettier leh ... hahaha ..:-P

Proud !!! Don't envy me ... hahaha

Today really so hot , felt like going to faint when we having the class outside there . Lao po not feeling well because of that lo .. :-(

The class finally end around 12:30 , then we went to the mamak stall there bought some drinks to "cooldown" . After that we go in the class room and thought can enjoy air-conditioner inside the container , But ......

The air-cond is NOT COLD AT ALL !!! OMG !!!
We just like staying inside a box with no air at all , felt like going to faint .
Lao po also not feeling well because of it . Damn It

So , we didn't listen the theory class at all . We chatting and taking photo all the time , enjoy lo . Actually I really wanna thanks to lao po and also Krystal , thanks for waiting for me . Thank you !!!

After SPM ..... is it everythings fine ??

Last time

"After SPM then study collage then work then .......bla bla bla " That's what will I say if someone ask me what will I do after SPM .

During SPM

"I wanna study harder to get better result , then I can go study Marketing at UTAR there " I will answer this if someone ask me about my future .

After SPM

"Haiz ~~ see how about my result first lo , also don't know got 5 credits or not =( " I will begin to give a reason to escape the question when someone ask me about my future .

After SPM result release and I'm qualified to study at UTAR

I really confused about my future , not because of what course I want to study , but where should I study . There are all the collage that I'm interested in .

1st = UTAR

This is the University that I wanna study at since I was form 5 ( maybe not that early la ) , its have to study a year of foundation then three years of degree program . Erm ... The fees is quite cheap , foundation is around 7k and degree program is about 33k . The degree program's fee can get the loan from PTPTN , PTPTN can give a maximum 16k per year for the loan ( but it's based on the family's income of the student ) . But .... I have to go to Kampar , Perak . If I really study UTAR , I have to split with my lovely gf for 3 years lo , I don't want to split with her even just a moment , I wish that I could stick with her if I can . Hahaha !!

Beside that , my family will have to spend a lot of money as my living cost in Kampar , Perak . I really don't want they become so "san fu" lo , I don't want to give them trouble of money just because of my problems .

So , I Think I'm not going to study there .

2nd = KDU

I will choose this collage is because my gf told me she will go to KDU study also , some more it's so near from my house . But the fees is really really too expensive for me , 70k to get the degree cert lo . So I decided to choose another collage to continue study .

Final = TARC

This collage actually is a bit far from my house lo , luckily can go by LRT . I will study at TARC is because I have no other choice anymore , and Jit Pian , Eng Keat and Hoe Chong also going to study there . TARC can also provided a 3 months training in UK for all those person who graduate from Advance Diploma , but it's have to pay 30k ( not include living cost , except hostel fee ) The environment of TARC is really not bad lo , got gym , swimming pool , football field ....... bla bla bla . I feel that if I really study there is wasn't a bad idea lo , because all those students who studying there not like all rich people , majority of them is come from a normal family .

Most probably will study there =)

Just like what my gf said " 2010 really a bad years for us lo , have a lot of important decision to make =( . Why Malaysia don't just have 1 collage leh ?? Because really hate to choose lo , it's make me confused lo !! Heard some of my friends said that still confusing now , they don't know whether should them change school now .

Year 2010 ,

This year I make my gf cried a lot , feel so guilty now =( Lao po , I knew you still feeling so blur about your collage , I really shouldn't keep on ask you about that de . Sorry =) Lao po , I'll treat you the best I could , I will study harder if we really have to study separately , won't " yai yai " . I swear !!

There's a lot of problem here

Having a really weird feeling recently .

Stress !! Moody !! Lonely !!

There's a lot of problems with me now , seems like luck is not on my side .
I'm afraid , afraid in everything .

First

I'm afraid that "she" can't study at UTAR ,
I'll worry in everything if she study at KDU alone .

Worry that we'll not that close if I study at Kampar ' Perak
Worry other guys will court her
Worry of her safety if she drive to school alone
Worry she can't understand what lecture taught her
Worry that she will be alone

Lao po , I really hope your mom will let you study at UTAR , here are the reason why

1. Jia Qi , Krystal and Shi Wei study there too
2. KDU's fee is about 30k more expensive than UTAR
3. You will study together with them in foundation
4. You can share a room with them if you go to study at Kampar's campus
5. You can be more concentrate on your study at the country place like Kampar , Perak

Second

I'm worry about the money now

If I really study at UTAR , I have to pay for foundation's fee
Its about 7k

Loan from PTPTN ??
Its only can apply for degree's program
Means ...
I've to pay by my own

But ,

My family is not rich ,
don't know parents got extra money to spend on it or not

How ??

Ask my aunt sponsor me ??
Borrow from them ??

I'm confusing !!

Third

My personality

Realized that I'm a weird person i ,
I got a lot of bad stuff , for example ;

1. Always be late and need people wait so long everytimes go out
2. No mercy to all the bad luck's people
3. Not enough responsibility while doing something
4. Not gentlemen at all
5. Lazy

*still got many more*

One more thing ,
Do you all really wanna to go Penang on next month ??
If all of you really want , then I've to plan about that .

~ That's all ~

What a bad news =( Have to study at UTAR

Its really a very bad news , I can't study at KDU with my lao po anymore , I have to study at UTAR . Actually I really wanna to study at KDU want , but based on my financial problem , I really can't afford to study there . Today I went to KDU and really ready to register already want , but then I didn't make it after the officer told me about the fee , I really realize that I can't afford that . The diploma program is about 33k for 2yrs and 4months ; then degree program is about 37k for 2yrs somethings . PTPTN can only let you loan for either diploma or degree program only , and its can't like get a full loan somemore , I have to pay some of that and my family really can't afford that .

After that I went to UTAR also to get some information about the fee all those . If I study at UTAR then I have to take 1 year foundation first , then after that go to Kampar , Perak to continue my degree . The fee of foundation is about 7k and can't loan from PTPTN , then 3 years of degree is about 33k and it can loan from PTPTN . The maximum loan can get from PTPTN is 16k yearly , but its depend on family's income . About the first year's fee , parents said they still can help me , they told me not to worry about that . They told me if I really going to continue study then must study damn hard to make sure the PTPTN won't suspend my loan .

Actually go to UTAR is a confirmed decision and I don't think it will change , but I really feel so upset with that . Not because of my result or about the money , its about my gf . She told me her mom not allowed her to study at UTAR , so she might study at KDU . Honestly I really wish that I could study at KDU together with her , but I can't . 3 years is like quite long time for me , just like what she wrote in her blog " love can be change by time , environment and people surrounding " . I doesn't mean that I'm not believe in her or I'll fall in love with another girls , but it will really cause us not that close if we're not see each other often , I'm really afraid to lose a such best future wife like her , I'm really worry !!

Now I just hope that her mom will allow her to study at UTAR . Lao po , tell her that Krystal , Shi Wei , Jia Qi and me were going to UTAR and all of us also going to Kampar , Perak . If your mom not allow you to study there just because of me , then its really worthless . Compare to UTAR , KDU is 30k more exp than UTAR and both of that is actually for the same level of certificate - degree . If your mom thought you can't study hard if we're in the same collage , then just ask her give you a try to study at UTAR for foundation first , if really not good then only study at another collage lo . If your mom is worry that you will stay with me and we will make " mistake " , I can swear to her I won't . You can ask her bring you to check monthly to see weather we got do anything that are "too much" . I can't study KDU is because of the problem of money , but you're different , you can choose . I really wish your mom can really let you decide you path by your own . Because I really felt that is really worthless to pay 30k more to study at KDU just because of me or the location lo .

I've decided to study st KDU

Maybe all of you will like " walao , Boh Ying study where then you just follow , no future la you " , or maybe some will say " don't just force yourself to study in private collage that you can't afford the fees " . But I've really decided to study at KDU with her .

I don't want to hide anyone of you , she were the main reason that I wanna study in KDU , because I wanna stick with her , I wanna see her pretty face everyday and I really wanna study hard together with her . But .... It's still some reason make me have this decision , it's about money .
Some of you might say " no money then study at UTAR la , why choose the private collage which need about 50k to study ?? " They will say " UTAR only about 30k la , why don't go there ?? " But they will never think about " how I keep my life if I study at Kampar , Perak ? " I bet if I tell then like that they will say something like " aiyo , ask your parents give money to you lo , or work part time lo . "

Haiz ~~~ I don't think they will say something like that if they knew about my family's finance . My family's income is about 4k monthly ( daddy and mommy added together ) , and they got a lot to pay like phone's fee , electric fee and all those other's thing like house payment , car payment and also food bla bla bla la . I just don't want them to get extra money for my living cost if i study at Kampar , Perak . I started to work since I was form 4 , the reason I'm working is because I wanna spend myself , I don't wanna ask money from parents anymore .

About the study fee is really not a big deal to me , because I'm gonna to get a PTPTN no matter where I'm study at . If PTPTN reject my application , I'll no gonna to study anymore . Study at UTAR or KDU is actually the same in finance problem la , no ptptn then go UTAR also can't afford de la . Then why I don't want stick with my lao po leh ?? Is it ??

Actually I really wanna apologize to my pretty lao po lo , I make you cry =( lao po , I'm sorry . I will study very very hard when we study together , I want teach you to have #1 class honour graduate de , I pronise . Lao po , I'm not going anyway anymore , we won't split want . I'll prove everyone that I go there study . So you faster faster register for it la , then I can "fong sam"

I love you

16/3/2010 .. Judgement Day

Its already 4th of March , its getting closer to the day of SPM result release date ( 16th of March 2010 ) . I think almost every examiner of spm 2009 will be nervous about it ( except those who are decided not to continue their study ) To me , the result is really so important to me , its my future and everything . I knew to many people study at collage or university is just like study at secondary school , the certificate is not really a big deal to their future , they can still use LV , Prada , AX , Gucci and Fred perry etc even they can only get 2000+ for their salary . ( because their family are rich ) But to me its a totally different story , I need that certificate to change my fate . I'm not living in a rich family , I step into this social to work since I was 16 years old to earn money for myself . Actually I'm quite enjoy with those experience like go to gym after school , then workout few hours then went home prepare to work . Its make me spend my time well , didn't waste my time at all . I think I will be so busy when the SPM result released , I have to apply for collage and also a loan from PTPTN , I've decided to study at UTAR if my result allow me to do that , and I will maybe take Marketing for business or either Banking and finance ( if Banking and Finance didn't use alot account ) . I really hope that everything can going well , hope that I can study at UTAR , because its like the only chance to change my life , the only way that I can debit all the promises that I ever give to my gf . GOD BLESS ME !!!! PLZ !!!!!!

Driving course ( BORED!!!)

Today finally went to listen for the driving course ( don't bullshit if you already went for it ) . It really bored when the instructor was talking in front with all those things can be read from the book ( mean instructor is actually useless ) . I met a new friend during the course , he is a University Malaya's study from China , Beijing . When our course ended , he went to play with people's motorcycle . He rode the motorcycle and drive around the learning center ( luckily nobody realize it ) . To take the test , I have to wait about a weeks before it for the certificate ( to prove that you attended the course ) . After that still have to listen another 12 hours' s course , 6 hours for car , and 6 hours for motorcycle's . Then after that only I can learn how to drive for 8 hours , then only I can take the JPJ's driving test . After everything has done , I think still have to wait about 1 month to get the P license . I'm think I can't get my license before my birthday , hope can get it before that , just like sending a gift to myself . Hahaha

Chiness New Year ?? Valentine's Day ??

Still got about 2 weeks is already Chiness New Year , but I still don't have the mood to celebrate it . The first day of Chiness New Year is Valentine's Day , also don't know whether is good or not lo . But it's doesn't matter to me , because I'm already decided to working on that day , I mean 14th of Feb . I didn't ever celebrate Valentine's Day before , this year I finally have a gf can celebrate with , but she can't go out because of Chiness New Year . It's really faith lo , I think maybe I still can't have the chance to celebrate my Valentine's Day . Actually I've already bought a present for my lovely wife for Valentine's Day , its then most expensive present that I ever bought for anyone , hope she will like it . Nothing to say anymore , wait for my next post . XD

My life is bored :-(

Feel that my life is getting bored now , I have no time to go to GYM or do another thing . My life is just working then sleeping ; then wake up and working . Haiz !! Who ask me need money meh , house also not rich like other , what I want also have to get it by myself . Sobxx :-( Feel that I am not that close to my friends now , because we have really less time to talk to each other or go hang out with them . And the most important thing is so difficult to meet my lao po since we all graduate from secondary school , feel like time doesn't move when I can't see her face . Now I just wish my result of SPM will allow me to get the loan and study in UTAR , then will have more people come to One Utama's Speedy shop to spend more money ( because I can get commisen from it ) . And also hope that I can have enough money to have my own car as soon as possible .

I'm worry about you li !!!

Krystle told me that got some "lala zai" disturb you during the course , Krystle also told me how they disturb you . I was so mad when I heard it , just feel like wanna take their head ( who disturbed you ) to hit it on the wall as strong as possible . Feel so guilty because I can't be with you when someone is disturbing you , SORRY !! Lao po , do you know I really worry about you lo , I'm afraid that you will let people bully or disturb when I'm not around you . Lao po is a very pretty girl , I'm not suprise if people star on you . But , I can't let them disturb you , even just ask about time also I not allowed . You may say I'm selfish , yes I am . Lao po , if you reading this then I COMMAND you can't go shopping alone even you have reached 21st , must ask me go with you or with a gang of friends that with some guys . You also can't drive alone after 8pm no matter what happen , just call me to fetch you . Be my wife got many rules to follow want , next time only continue la . Now wanna go get into sleep already , tomorrow still have to work fullday .

I just wanna be with you

lao po , I LOVE YOU !!!

Yesterday went to 1u with my lao po (9/1/2010) , quite bored because she came at 7p.m , we just walked awhile and watched a very x10 funny movie named "Old Dogs" . Even though that , both of us were still very enjoy about it ( many shame's things happened to me ) . Actually while first moment I knew that she will go that that late I really felt so upset and like no mood to go anymore . She stay in Puchong and I stay in Petaling Jaya , because of no transport , so we're very difficult to meet each other ( it's all my fault that didn't save money for driving license last time ) . So everytime we got chance to go out , I will try to make it early in the morning and go home as late as possible , so that we could stay together longer . Everythings will be fine while she were beside me , no matter how bad it was . Once she is beside me , that only the moment I can feel that my life is meaningfull and truly happy , I hope time can be stop while she is beside me , because I really hated that feeling that you have to say "GOODBYE" and walk away from me , I HATED IT SO MUCH !!! I knew some people will thought that I so sticky to you , just like a magnect that always wanna stick with you and didn't do my own stuff well , even myself also feeling that , but I really can't control myself . My lao po is a very pretty lady , she got good family background and her mother tought her so well , she just like every guy's dream girl ; How about me ?? I just a ugly guy with dark skin , my family is not that rich , I'm just a norma very normal guy . It's a maricle for me to have this type of girl to be my girlfriend , it's something unbelieveable to other people . We had been couple for 7 months , maybe it's so short for some other people , but I'm truly love her so much until can't let her leave away from me . Do you know I will be so comfort and happy when we were together , we can play to each other even chatting through a phone call . I'm not that kind of person who will think properly before I did somethings or make decision , she were the person who make me became mature and learned to think properly before I make a decision , she were the person who make me plan about my future , my ambition or even my money . She were the MOST IMPORTANT person in my life , I will not gonna to learn about how to save money , how to use the money well . Sometimes I will thinking what will happened if last time I didn't get her phone number from Felix and I didn't try to send message to her . Will she still become my girlfriend ? Or will we still be friend ? No body knows . What I knew is my life will sucks if she never appear in my world , I guarentee I will stop my study after form 5 , I will not save money , and also not thinking about my future at all . Actually I felt a bit guilty to my lao po , because I didn't really treat her so well while we just start our relationship as couple , I always thought that she are not really love me at that time and I felt that I'm not qualify to be her boyfriend . Because of my unconfidence , I did a lot of things that hurted her , disappointed her . Lao po , I'm so SORRY , you can do any punishment to me if you reading this , is ANY !! Now our relationship can finally called STABLE , or maybe STRONGHOLD , and I've sweared that I will not do anything which my lao po dislike or anything can hurt or disappoint my lao po , I want marry her and build a family which is full of happiness with her ( not that soon la of course ) , I wanna love my remaining life to love her , protect her and take care of her . If lao po you're reading this , I hope you can be confidenced with me , don't always think that I will leave you , I WON"T !!! I SWEAR !!! It's really so sad while you're not confidence with me . LEE BOH YING , I LOVE YOU !!!

9/1/2010

Today is Tse Hui's birthday , we not really go celebrate for her ( I mean our gang la ) . All of us have to work and some of that really no money to go out ( just like me ) . Luckily Jeh Ying and some of her another friends were going out to celebrate for her ( actually some is going to class gathering want lo ) . I joined them around 6p.m lo , then after that me and Tse Hui go find Shi Wei . After that we back to " Wong Kok " to eat the cake that Tse Hui's friends bought for her ( actually I also got share together want ) . After that some of them is leaving and some of them is going to their class gathering . So , I'm became alone again . I walking alone with no direction and target until I get a phone call , a phone call for my lovely wife . She told me that she arrived and ask me to wait her at Shi Wei's workplace there , I was so happy at that moment . While I saw her at that moment , I really don't know how to convey my feeling , it's was so happy . After that we go shop awhile to look for present to Shi Wei and Jia Qi ( for last year's birthday ) , finally we bought a black colour purse to Jia Qi and Shi Wei's present still searching . After that we go watched a movie named "Old Dogs" in TGV ( kolot punya tempat ) , and the movie is really make us laugh like crazy ( even we in the cinema at 8pm for a 7:30pm's show ) . After that we go shop awhile then her sister called her to tell her they had to leave ( really feel like don't want let her go want lo ) , and i forgotten to get my wallet back from her . That's what happened to me in 9/1/2010 .

Back to school ??

Today is the day of school reopen , I guess many students will feel unusual and unhappy lo . Haha !!! But I think still got many people will enjoy about it want , especially all the Standard 1 students , they sure be very happy that finally study at primary school . Haiz !! Can't get into school anymore now li , I mean can't get back to S.M.K Taman SEA and study at 5 Kemboja anymore li . Actually I not really have much more good memory in that school lo , my highlight in that school is meet my lao po , meet the most important girls in my life . Sometimes really miss the feeling while I courting lao po in school , really many things happened between us de lo , I still remember the first day I saw her in Chiness class while I'm form 3 , I totally attract with her at that moment . That school really give me a lot of good memory , I meet all my good ji mui there , meet my lao po there . Life really pasted so fast , now we can't like meet everyday and chick chat together everyday now . I think I will miss all those good memory that ever happened to all of us

Finally got a job

Today is my first day to work at Speedy , quite enjoy and its more relax than I expected . Actually not really need to server the customer , what I have to do is to arrange all the disc and remember where they are . First day work really can't remember all lo , when the customer ask me about the disc , I was like stunned . My supervisor is a man named Gary , he is so nice and very funny ( but looks emo ) . This job is really enjoy and also very relax , all the worker is so nice and funny . I think I will be so happy to work there .