From freshmen orientation to final examination, unforgettable moments

The old woman inside the photo was my English lecturer, Madam Tan. Unfortunately, to day was our last day to attended to her English class, after today, I may not find other English lecturer like Madam Tan, the lecturer who really put a lot of afford to teach her students.

Time really ran so fast, don't realize that my first semester already reached the end, now just waiting to sit for final exam. Haiz ~~ Still remember the first day I attended to TAR College for the Freshmen Orietation, what a unforgettable moments, it's all valuable, and most probably will not happen again in our life anymore.

If you ask me the question "What have you learn in your first semester?" , most probably I will answer "the correct way to study and the right attitude in learning" . Honestly, I felt that I was failed, I have fail completely for being a college student, a son for my parents, and also a responsibility boyfriend for my girlfriend. I really don't think I have already try my best in this semester, besides that, my behavior is worse, as worse as a jerk. I felt shame about my behavior, I don't even want to let other people know how was my behavior in college.

Whatever, that's already a past tense in my life, useless to talking about it right here. What should I concentrate in right now is my final examination, because that's what on forward. I can't change what I did in the past, but I can make a difference in my final examination, perhaps I want to. I don't want to make anymore commentary right here, unless I do what I want to do, perhaps I really try my best to do what I should do for the final examination. Distinction? By logical, I don't think I can get it; But, by mentally, I really want to get it. I think, therefore I am.

Commentary about the world that I belongs to

After reading several number of books of philosophy, I think I'm already learned somethings from that, it's make my thinking became mature, my mind was opened widely. Maybe some of you will think that I was talking a cock and bull story here (in certain way I was) , but that's the reason why blog exist right? Perhaps it's not, then what for blog exist?

Recently I realized that the world we living in now is getting worse and worse, human became selfish, arrogance, self-centred, narcissistic and so on. Many of the younger generation may think that this is what we need to survive in this competitive world, it's not true at all. In the few decades in past, children will not cheat or lie to others, they can think maturely and behave as a child. But if we study about the children in now, we will be surprise, children in this generation used to cheat and lie to their parents, their friends. Some of the rich children even looking down of people who is poor even they are just a 5 years old child.

In my opinion, if we really want to change the world, to become a world which is healthy and harmony, we should do somethings. What we have to do is we have to give our new generation a positive thinking, we should let them think positively, but not just tell them what should they do. Parents should teach children in thinking, but not action, if we only tell them what to do and doesn't try to understand why they do so, we could not make children get better. In facts, it will make the situation getting worse.

Conclusion is, if we want the world get better, we should start from our thinking. We will not change the world to be better if we don't have the positive thinking and philosophy to being a human.

What's on my mind nowadays ??

What's in my mind nowadays? College's stuff? Girl friend? Money? Honestly , I don't really know what am I thinking, everything was just too messy on my mind, its just like things floated everywhere on my mind, messy, random and unpredictable .

I'm reading some books which is all about philosophy and existentialism nowadays, when I started to read, then only I realized that my thinking was too naive compared to those great thinker. What I thought in my past 18 years was only those facts that majority of people thinking, things that everyone knew and think with same ways.

What's wrote in philosophy's books were different, I dare to say it's completely different. In those books, I learned to think in other ways, think somethings that I've never expected before, learned what I can't learn in college, somethings that priceless.

Maybe some of you will thought that I'm talking nonsense here, I will not blame them, because that's exactly what am I doing right now. Since the first moment I started to type my blog here, I'm wasting my time, that's a fact that cannot be decline.