I just wanna be with you

lao po , I LOVE YOU !!!

Yesterday went to 1u with my lao po (9/1/2010) , quite bored because she came at 7p.m , we just walked awhile and watched a very x10 funny movie named "Old Dogs" . Even though that , both of us were still very enjoy about it ( many shame's things happened to me ) . Actually while first moment I knew that she will go that that late I really felt so upset and like no mood to go anymore . She stay in Puchong and I stay in Petaling Jaya , because of no transport , so we're very difficult to meet each other ( it's all my fault that didn't save money for driving license last time ) . So everytime we got chance to go out , I will try to make it early in the morning and go home as late as possible , so that we could stay together longer . Everythings will be fine while she were beside me , no matter how bad it was . Once she is beside me , that only the moment I can feel that my life is meaningfull and truly happy , I hope time can be stop while she is beside me , because I really hated that feeling that you have to say "GOODBYE" and walk away from me , I HATED IT SO MUCH !!! I knew some people will thought that I so sticky to you , just like a magnect that always wanna stick with you and didn't do my own stuff well , even myself also feeling that , but I really can't control myself . My lao po is a very pretty lady , she got good family background and her mother tought her so well , she just like every guy's dream girl ; How about me ?? I just a ugly guy with dark skin , my family is not that rich , I'm just a norma very normal guy . It's a maricle for me to have this type of girl to be my girlfriend , it's something unbelieveable to other people . We had been couple for 7 months , maybe it's so short for some other people , but I'm truly love her so much until can't let her leave away from me . Do you know I will be so comfort and happy when we were together , we can play to each other even chatting through a phone call . I'm not that kind of person who will think properly before I did somethings or make decision , she were the person who make me became mature and learned to think properly before I make a decision , she were the person who make me plan about my future , my ambition or even my money . She were the MOST IMPORTANT person in my life , I will not gonna to learn about how to save money , how to use the money well . Sometimes I will thinking what will happened if last time I didn't get her phone number from Felix and I didn't try to send message to her . Will she still become my girlfriend ? Or will we still be friend ? No body knows . What I knew is my life will sucks if she never appear in my world , I guarentee I will stop my study after form 5 , I will not save money , and also not thinking about my future at all . Actually I felt a bit guilty to my lao po , because I didn't really treat her so well while we just start our relationship as couple , I always thought that she are not really love me at that time and I felt that I'm not qualify to be her boyfriend . Because of my unconfidence , I did a lot of things that hurted her , disappointed her . Lao po , I'm so SORRY , you can do any punishment to me if you reading this , is ANY !! Now our relationship can finally called STABLE , or maybe STRONGHOLD , and I've sweared that I will not do anything which my lao po dislike or anything can hurt or disappoint my lao po , I want marry her and build a family which is full of happiness with her ( not that soon la of course ) , I wanna love my remaining life to love her , protect her and take care of her . If lao po you're reading this , I hope you can be confidenced with me , don't always think that I will leave you , I WON"T !!! I SWEAR !!! It's really so sad while you're not confidence with me . LEE BOH YING , I LOVE YOU !!!