The changing of my life

SPM is over , my secondary school life is also finally over , everything about my life is changing right now . But my love to my lao po is always the same . Haiz , feel so guilty to my lao po li , because last time I didn't keep money for my driving license when I was working last time . Lao po , I truly truly so regret right now . This few days keep looking for job , must get a job before 1st of January 2010 . Lao po is already told her parents that she couple with me right now , they didn't scold or say anything , just say be " friend "( mean couple ) no problem , I think they were warn us to not to do all those things that are too over ( I guess you should knew what is that right ? ) . I can't be still like a child anymore , can't throw all those problem to my parents anymore , I have to handle all those problem by myself right now . If I get the job then the salary must be manage it so well , and I'm already to let my lao po manage it for me ( I'm really very x 10 serious about it ) . If the salary is about RM 1300 , then I will give RM 300 to parents and RM 700 to let lao po keep . I think I will open a acc to let my lao po hold the acc book and also the ATM card . I can't simply use the money like before already , if not I can't give lao po a good life in the future . My life will totally be different in a future , my responsibility is getting bigger right now , is not only to myself and my parents , but also to my lao po . I knew we just couple for less than 7 months , but I'm really really love her so deep , I wish I could give her a future , give her her dream life in a future . I really want to marry her , want her to be my wife , want to have a good family with her . So what I want to do now is get a job , get a driving license and save money to buy a car . Now we can't meet everyday like in school already , we will miss each other when we can't see each other . Actually I really hate that feeling of can't see her lo , I really feel like hell when I can't see her , everytime we meet I also hope time can be stop at the moment , because I really hate the feeling when I have to say the word "GOODBYE" to her . Lao po , if you reading this then I want say sorry to you , sorry that didn't save money last time . Its my fault to cause we can't meet each other , just put the blame on me . Lao po , I'm sorry .