What am I doing now ??

SPM is on now...Already took Math , Moral , English , BM and also History papers . Feel so disappointed to myself , because I didn't well in all those papers , especially Math . I always thought that I' so smart , even just study one day before exam also can get past . But I'm totally wrong , wrong so badly . I really not suppose just put my target as a credit or just past , I should get A . I really so regret that I didn't spend more time to study . Now still got 4 more days to prepare for Account paper , but I still not yet study . I still keep on play computer and go out , feel that I'm pushing out the gred A from myself .

SPM !!!

2 days before SPM , getting stress and stress now . This few days just keep on focus on my history , I'm really regret that didn't study earlier before exam , now just can study from day to night , from night to day . I'm already can't get into sleep from 3 days , even study 5a.m I still not sleepy at all . Wednesday have to sit for Bahasa Melayu and History paper , Bahasa Melayu I'm not worry about it too much , what I worry the most is the history paper . I failed my History during trial examination , I really don't want fail any subject in SPM . SPM really so important to me , I really have to study at collage want . I'm not born rich , so i can't like others person that have a rich family to support them to collage or oversea to study . I can just get a loan from bank to continue my lesson if I can go to collage , so I must get a good result in SPM , if not the bank will not approve the loan for me to study .

Stress !!

Today is 9 days before SPM , begin to worry about it.. But everytime I sit at the table , I'll only focus on the protein and keep on thinking about bodybuilding....haiz !!

The subject that I worry the most was Mathematic , so I bought this to learn back what have I forgotten about Math . It maybe too small for others , but its really useful to me....XD

See !! I bought all this revision book since long time ago , but all of it still like new want ...

SPM is getting closer and closer , everyone already study like hell now . But I'm still sitting in front the computer to online , play facebook , play warcraft . I really don't know what result I'll get in SPM with this type of attitube :(

Gym Gym Gym !!!

Just now went to gym work out li
Feel so happy now li
But just now like not strong as last time li
Take so lightweight only li
Tomorrow must try to take heavier ...
Really hope I can get my protein sooner li
Have to wait until this coming wednesday li
Too long for me li ....
Tonight must sleep early
So that tomorrow can take heavier ...
Hahahahahaha
Really so happy li

Today lao po sick d li ...
So did not go to school ...
Then I skip school also ...XD
Worry about her li ...
Always headache and feel like vomit ...
Now still get sick li ...
Don't know how she feel now li ??
Don't know she got go consult doctor or not li ?
Ah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Really worry bout her li ...
Called her also did not answer ..=(
Sometimes really wish that is I got allergy nose li ...
So that lao po don't have to feel headache and wanna vomit
Everytime heard she not feeling well really make me worry de li ...
Just hope her mommy can bring her receive the candle treatment as soon as possible

Life is really not so fair !!

Now is the 8th of 九皇爷诞。。。
I'm already working at the temple for 8 days li ...
This 8 days really feel that not fair at all li ...
Sometimes really getting mad about it
All those adult just like to keep on command us to work
Then always like to give comment to our works
I really hate that !!
And what make me really mad is ...
Heard that some people get same or even higher salary than us ...
And they didn't even have to work ....
Just because they having relationship with some BOD
I don't is true or not la ..
But really getting mad when i heard it lo ....

What can I do ??

Yesterday chat with someone in MSN
Then my lao po mad on me about me..
She thought I care about the girl more than her
She thought I wanna court the girl
WTF !!!
I felt really upset that she will think that ...
Until now she still think that I will like other girls ??
I knew my image is like a playboy ...
I admit I like to chat with girls ...
But really does not mean that i wanna court them lo
Actually I don't have much more guys friends
Especially who have same topic with me ....
I don't mind if other people misunderstanding me
But I really feel so sad that my lao po misunderstanding me too lo
She should knew she is the only person that I like
The only person that I want to spend my whole life with
Can't she just trust me ??
I really don't know what can I do now lo
All I can do is going to school tomorrow explain to her