Looking for job..

I needed a job, I needed money. I should attend to my job interview today, but so sad that doesn't. Actually I don't really want to attend for it since yesterday night, because the location is a bit too far to me. But I am not a foolish, this morning I sent a message to my friend to ask for a job. I didn't get any good news from her, what I get is just another bad news. The world is really smaller than I expected(doesn't really measured, just adjective) , the company she working is actually same as the one that I looking for. Unfortunately, she told me that the company not gonna hire any students for their jobs, my heart broken (just joking). Semester 2 is going to start on monday, about the work just temporary leave it behind, nothing is more important than study right now.

Friendship

I had one my my friends's blog, the title is about "time v.s friendship". She claimed that friends can't last long forever based on the environment we growth, people we met in our life or the way we thought. I have no doubt about that, because I don't I am a kind of person who will not put friendship on first place, and I don't even believe that we need a friend to share our grieve with us. To me, friends just mean people who can give you help when you need them, but not share our feeling with them, or care about them. Sounds cruel and selfish right? But have you really ask yourselves? When is the moment you will think about your friends? Moment when you having a great party? Or moment when your car broke down on the way you going back home? There are no BFF (best friend forever) exist in my life, or even a very good friend to share with. If you ever betrayed by someone, most probably you will say the same words I saying here. I ever heard a word in Chinese which mean "friends is use to betray", I believe deeply is this sentence. We are all human being, there is no doubt that we will betray each other. Humanism is darkness, everyone is selfish, so I suggest all of you don't fully trusted in anyone, no matter how good the person with you now, please keep some secrets for yourselves, otherwise, you will get hurt.

I believe facebook user is having too much free time

What I will say so? If you are a facebook user( I think most of the people are), then have you realize what people usually post on their status? Or what they comment in others? I can almost see those dumb ass's status and comment in facebook everyday, something like "good morning everyone","good night everyone" and more of it as their status. Some of that even dare to type "LOLX" as their status, WHAT THE HELL is on their mind, or they really having too much freedom? Compared to all this person, I think people who post video or telling their experience is much better, but they are still having too much free time. The reason why I would say so is because some experience they posted on facebook status wall really gonna let people get mad ( as I always feel that ), have you ever seen dumb ass post "I am hungry", "doing assignment" on their status? Perhaps it can called as dumb ass, then some people can even called as super dumb ass, they are those people who go to comment on those dumb ass's status. I ever seen some people comment to the status of "I am hungry" with "go eat la". I just like...What The Hell, they really think the person who post the status is retarded? They don't know go to eat when they were hungry? I don't know what they going to post on Facebook status is future, and I don't even have that guts to imagine it.

From freshmen orientation to final examination, unforgettable moments

The old woman inside the photo was my English lecturer, Madam Tan. Unfortunately, to day was our last day to attended to her English class, after today, I may not find other English lecturer like Madam Tan, the lecturer who really put a lot of afford to teach her students.

Time really ran so fast, don't realize that my first semester already reached the end, now just waiting to sit for final exam. Haiz ~~ Still remember the first day I attended to TAR College for the Freshmen Orietation, what a unforgettable moments, it's all valuable, and most probably will not happen again in our life anymore.

If you ask me the question "What have you learn in your first semester?" , most probably I will answer "the correct way to study and the right attitude in learning" . Honestly, I felt that I was failed, I have fail completely for being a college student, a son for my parents, and also a responsibility boyfriend for my girlfriend. I really don't think I have already try my best in this semester, besides that, my behavior is worse, as worse as a jerk. I felt shame about my behavior, I don't even want to let other people know how was my behavior in college.

Whatever, that's already a past tense in my life, useless to talking about it right here. What should I concentrate in right now is my final examination, because that's what on forward. I can't change what I did in the past, but I can make a difference in my final examination, perhaps I want to. I don't want to make anymore commentary right here, unless I do what I want to do, perhaps I really try my best to do what I should do for the final examination. Distinction? By logical, I don't think I can get it; But, by mentally, I really want to get it. I think, therefore I am.

Commentary about the world that I belongs to

After reading several number of books of philosophy, I think I'm already learned somethings from that, it's make my thinking became mature, my mind was opened widely. Maybe some of you will think that I was talking a cock and bull story here (in certain way I was) , but that's the reason why blog exist right? Perhaps it's not, then what for blog exist?

Recently I realized that the world we living in now is getting worse and worse, human became selfish, arrogance, self-centred, narcissistic and so on. Many of the younger generation may think that this is what we need to survive in this competitive world, it's not true at all. In the few decades in past, children will not cheat or lie to others, they can think maturely and behave as a child. But if we study about the children in now, we will be surprise, children in this generation used to cheat and lie to their parents, their friends. Some of the rich children even looking down of people who is poor even they are just a 5 years old child.

In my opinion, if we really want to change the world, to become a world which is healthy and harmony, we should do somethings. What we have to do is we have to give our new generation a positive thinking, we should let them think positively, but not just tell them what should they do. Parents should teach children in thinking, but not action, if we only tell them what to do and doesn't try to understand why they do so, we could not make children get better. In facts, it will make the situation getting worse.

Conclusion is, if we want the world get better, we should start from our thinking. We will not change the world to be better if we don't have the positive thinking and philosophy to being a human.

What's on my mind nowadays ??

What's in my mind nowadays? College's stuff? Girl friend? Money? Honestly , I don't really know what am I thinking, everything was just too messy on my mind, its just like things floated everywhere on my mind, messy, random and unpredictable .

I'm reading some books which is all about philosophy and existentialism nowadays, when I started to read, then only I realized that my thinking was too naive compared to those great thinker. What I thought in my past 18 years was only those facts that majority of people thinking, things that everyone knew and think with same ways.

What's wrote in philosophy's books were different, I dare to say it's completely different. In those books, I learned to think in other ways, think somethings that I've never expected before, learned what I can't learn in college, somethings that priceless.

Maybe some of you will thought that I'm talking nonsense here, I will not blame them, because that's exactly what am I doing right now. Since the first moment I started to type my blog here, I'm wasting my time, that's a fact that cannot be decline.

College's friends

Everything is changed since I start my college life .
New friends , new subjects , new environment and also new style of study.

Felt that my English language is better than before
Thanks to my English lecturer .....XD

Beside that ,
I would also like to talk about those new friends that I've met in TAR College
All GUYS !!

How about girls ?? Erm ~~
Don't feel like they are my friends lo...
LOLXXX

BUT ......
There's one thing that make me nervous ....
that's is my financial difficult ....

I didn't get PTPTN ... Why ??
Thanks to my STUPID ATTITUDE !!!
didn't open a Public Bank account earlier...
yoohoo ~~~

But I will not getting too worry about that in this moment ,
now just want study harder in my 1st semester
and....
enjoy the happiness... other than that ??
Just temporary ignore it la ~~~~