Alchohol

Yesterday was a unforgettable night for my family, a night that really embarrassed me. My stupid sister was drunk last night and caused a great fight in my family. I really feel that my sister is completely hopeless and unreliable, she said many words that hurt my parents too much last night. I don't know since when she became like this, like a bitch, bitch will make everyone hate her, looking down at her. I really shame about this sister, I have no idea how to make her think like an human, but not as a bitch.

Chinese New Year

Today is the first day of Chinese New Year, as usual, I will still be working. Honestly, I admit the meaning of Chinese New Year is already different to me, unlike when I was still a few years old child, I lost my expectation for Chinese New Year, lost expectation to Ang Pao. Today will be the last day I working at Jusco, quite happy that I don't have to work at the weird place any more, haha. Kinda blank for today's programme, what should I do after work? Should I just watch a film? Or maybe I should go cousin's house to have some gamble. Chinese New Year leh !! But why its just like ordinary day for me?

The year of 2011

There's a Chinese sentence, "faith will never wait for us". You will never realise how fast time will pass by. I admit that I never be a good guy I should be, a good bf for my lovely wife, nor a good son for my parents. But I promise, to myself and everyone I known, the worse Edwin will be gone with the end of the firework of 2010, the brand new Edwin is rebirth after the firework of 2010.

There is many plan for me in the years of 2011, plan that I can't make it in years of 2010. First of all, I must treat my wife better than ever, think about her before myself. Secondly, I must start to workout at gym again, my current body really embarrassed me, and I really can't stand for it. Third, I must, and I will make my GPA to get as high as possible.

After all, I wish that I can spend more time to study philosophy, to read more books. Study philosophy really inspired me a lot, more that I can imagine. I want use it to change the world around me, at least change the people that I knew, environment that I included.

So 2011, here I come !! To change myself in 2011.

Finally~~

Finally get the call from E-promote, they offered me a job in Cold Storage, 1 utama for this and next coming weekend. Hopefully I can do this job well, and other jobs that I asked for before will call me for work, because I really really needed money so badly. As I said before in my previous post- money is everything. Other than that, what I want to say is that I met a person in facebook-a female friend of Wayne(one of my college friends). I can't believe that there are another person who will make an little argument about existentialism in Wayne's status comment, really can't believe about it, haha. I wish that I can meet more and more people like that in facebook or perhaps in another way, because its really funny when we can find someone is willing to make argument to discuss about philosophy. haha !!

Unhappiness and happiness

According to Soloman, the King of Israel. all the unhappiness in us arise when we humans begins to question about this world and its problem. We will all feel unhappy sometime, unless we are not human being, but have we ever think why we will got that feeling?

Most common cases surround by us is we like to complaint about why we can gain more wealth, why we can't get smarter than other, and all this thought let unhappiness in our daily life. We are not God, that's why we shouldn't question about the world. We were all born with nothing, then what we have to insist on what we couldn't have in our life? Life is simple, humans need is also simple-foods, clothes and place to stay. We are the reason who caused war, killing, destruction on the Earth. Humans want to live peacefully with each other, but humans were the reason why humans can't live peacefully with each other. If we can control the urge in our mind, the hunger to get something which is not belong to us, happiness will be the only thing in our life.

Money, power and respect, who many people died from these. Happiness to someone maybe just 3 of that, (money, power and respect ) but that's not. People who looking for that will never get what we called true happiness, they will just loss more and more, and finally, unhappiness will be their friend. What is happiness? I also don't know and I still looking for that, perhaps I can realize it some day in the future, I will share with all of you.

Happy or unhappy?

We can choose to be happy or unhappy, because we are human being, we can control our feeling. Today, it's a unforgettable day to me, but I will not gonna tell you all what happened. Actually I didn't really feel so happy few days ago, I was stressed up and feel like nobody I could get myself into. But that's not the key make me feel unhappy, is because my lao po. Recently she doesn't looks like happy, like stressed up. I don't know why, I don't even dare to ask her, because I knew that she will let me know if she want to. Since tuesday, I realized that I must comfort her. When I saw her cried on that day, I felt guilt, I just can't do a damn single thing to stop her from crying. Last night, she told me everything. I think she just having too much stress on everything, our relationship and also her study. Actually she is really good girl, a very good student, a good gf. I think she is putting all the things on her own, that's why she stressed up like now, I wish I can comfort her, let her know that nothings have to be so stress or worry about that. All I want is see her smile like a baby again, but not crying like a baby, but no matter how she feel, I wish she could share with me and I just don't want to miss any part of her life.

Looking for job..

I needed a job, I needed money. I should attend to my job interview today, but so sad that doesn't. Actually I don't really want to attend for it since yesterday night, because the location is a bit too far to me. But I am not a foolish, this morning I sent a message to my friend to ask for a job. I didn't get any good news from her, what I get is just another bad news. The world is really smaller than I expected(doesn't really measured, just adjective) , the company she working is actually same as the one that I looking for. Unfortunately, she told me that the company not gonna hire any students for their jobs, my heart broken (just joking). Semester 2 is going to start on monday, about the work just temporary leave it behind, nothing is more important than study right now.