Nothings gonna change my love for you

Alchohol

2011-02-12T20:52:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a unforgettable night for my family, a night that really embarrassed me. My stupid sister was drunk last night and caused a great fight in my family. I really feel that my sister is completely hopeless and unreliable, she said many words that hurt my parents too much last night. I don't know since when she became like this, like a bitch, bitch will make everyone hate her, looking down at her. I really shame about this sister, I have no idea how to make her think like an human, but not as a bitch.

Chinese New Year

2011-02-02T17:10:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day of Chinese New Year, as usual, I will still be working. Honestly, I admit the meaning of Chinese New Year is already different to me, unlike when I was still a few years old child, I lost my expectation for Chinese New Year, lost expectation to Ang Pao. Today will be the last day I working at Jusco, quite happy that I don't have to work at the weird place any more, haha. Kinda blank for today's programme, what should I do after work? Should I just watch a film? Or maybe I should go cousin's house to have some gamble. Chinese New Year leh !! But why its just like ordinary day for me?

The year of 2011

2011-01-03T08:39:00.000-08:00

There's a Chinese sentence, "faith will never wait for us". You will never realise how fast time will pass by. I admit that I never be a good guy I should be, a good bf for my lovely wife, nor a good son for my parents. But I promise, to myself and everyone I known, the worse Edwin will be gone with the end of the firework of 2010, the brand new Edwin is rebirth after the firework of 2010.

There is many plan for me in the years of 2011, plan that I can't make it in years of 2010. First of all, I must treat my wife better than ever, think about her before myself. Secondly, I must start to workout at gym again, my current body really embarrassed me, and I really can't stand for it. Third, I must, and I will make my GPA to get as high as possible.

After all, I wish that I can spend more time to study philosophy, to read more books. Study philosophy really inspired me a lot, more that I can imagine. I want use it to change the world around me, at least change the people that I knew, environment that I included.

So 2011, here I come !! To change myself in 2011.

Finally~~

2010-11-02T04:32:00.000-07:00

Finally get the call from E-promote, they offered me a job in Cold Storage, 1 utama for this and next coming weekend. Hopefully I can do this job well, and other jobs that I asked for before will call me for work, because I really really needed money so badly. As I said before in my previous post- money is everything. Other than that, what I want to say is that I met a person in facebook-a female friend of Wayne(one of my college friends). I can't believe that there are another person who will make an little argument about existentialism in Wayne's status comment, really can't believe about it, haha. I wish that I can meet more and more people like that in facebook or perhaps in another way, because its really funny when we can find someone is willing to make argument to discuss about philosophy. haha !!

Unhappiness and happiness

2010-09-30T01:25:00.000-07:00

According to Soloman, the King of Israel. all the unhappiness in us arise when we humans begins to question about this world and its problem. We will all feel unhappy sometime, unless we are not human being, but have we ever think why we will got that feeling?

Most common cases surround by us is we like to complaint about why we can gain more wealth, why we can't get smarter than other, and all this thought let unhappiness in our daily life. We are not God, that's why we shouldn't question about the world. We were all born with nothing, then what we have to insist on what we couldn't have in our life? Life is simple, humans need is also simple-foods, clothes and place to stay. We are the reason who caused war, killing, destruction on the Earth. Humans want to live peacefully with each other, but humans were the reason why humans can't live peacefully with each other. If we can control the urge in our mind, the hunger to get something which is not belong to us, happiness will be the only thing in our life.

Money, power and respect, who many people died from these. Happiness to someone maybe just 3 of that, (money, power and respect ) but that's not. People who looking for that will never get what we called true happiness, they will just loss more and more, and finally, unhappiness will be their friend. What is happiness? I also don't know and I still looking for that, perhaps I can realize it some day in the future, I will share with all of you.

Happy or unhappy?

2010-09-23T05:58:00.000-07:00

We can choose to be happy or unhappy, because we are human being, we can control our feeling. Today, it's a unforgettable day to me, but I will not gonna tell you all what happened. Actually I didn't really feel so happy few days ago, I was stressed up and feel like nobody I could get myself into. But that's not the key make me feel unhappy, is because my lao po. Recently she doesn't looks like happy, like stressed up. I don't know why, I don't even dare to ask her, because I knew that she will let me know if she want to. Since tuesday, I realized that I must comfort her. When I saw her cried on that day, I felt guilt, I just can't do a damn single thing to stop her from crying. Last night, she told me everything. I think she just having too much stress on everything, our relationship and also her study. Actually she is really good girl, a very good student, a good gf. I think she is putting all the things on her own, that's why she stressed up like now, I wish I can comfort her, let her know that nothings have to be so stress or worry about that. All I want is see her smile like a baby again, but not crying like a baby, but no matter how she feel, I wish she could share with me and I just don't want to miss any part of her life.

Looking for job..

2010-09-22T00:01:00.000-07:00

I needed a job, I needed money. I should attend to my job interview today, but so sad that doesn't. Actually I don't really want to attend for it since yesterday night, because the location is a bit too far to me. But I am not a foolish, this morning I sent a message to my friend to ask for a job. I didn't get any good news from her, what I get is just another bad news. The world is really smaller than I expected(doesn't really measured, just adjective) , the company she working is actually same as the one that I looking for. Unfortunately, she told me that the company not gonna hire any students for their jobs, my heart broken (just joking). Semester 2 is going to start on monday, about the work just temporary leave it behind, nothing is more important than study right now.

Friendship

2010-09-19T21:14:00.000-07:00

I had one my my friends's blog, the title is about "time v.s friendship". She claimed that friends can't last long forever based on the environment we growth, people we met in our life or the way we thought. I have no doubt about that, because I don't I am a kind of person who will not put friendship on first place, and I don't even believe that we need a friend to share our grieve with us. To me, friends just mean people who can give you help when you need them, but not share our feeling with them, or care about them. Sounds cruel and selfish right? But have you really ask yourselves? When is the moment you will think about your friends? Moment when you having a great party? Or moment when your car broke down on the way you going back home? There are no BFF (best friend forever) exist in my life, or even a very good friend to share with. If you ever betrayed by someone, most probably you will say the same words I saying here. I ever heard a word in Chinese which mean "friends is use to betray", I believe deeply is this sentence. We are all human being, there is no doubt that we will betray each other. Humanism is darkness, everyone is selfish, so I suggest all of you don't fully trusted in anyone, no matter how good the person with you now, please keep some secrets for yourselves, otherwise, you will get hurt.

I believe facebook user is having too much free time

2010-09-15T22:19:00.000-07:00

What I will say so? If you are a facebook user( I think most of the people are), then have you realize what people usually post on their status? Or what they comment in others? I can almost see those dumb ass's status and comment in facebook everyday, something like "good morning everyone","good night everyone" and more of it as their status. Some of that even dare to type "LOLX" as their status, WHAT THE HELL is on their mind, or they really having too much freedom? Compared to all this person, I think people who post video or telling their experience is much better, but they are still having too much free time. The reason why I would say so is because some experience they posted on facebook status wall really gonna let people get mad ( as I always feel that ), have you ever seen dumb ass post "I am hungry", "doing assignment" on their status? Perhaps it can called as dumb ass, then some people can even called as super dumb ass, they are those people who go to comment on those dumb ass's status. I ever seen some people comment to the status of "I am hungry" with "go eat la". I just like...What The Hell, they really think the person who post the status is retarded? They don't know go to eat when they were hungry? I don't know what they going to post on Facebook status is future, and I don't even have that guts to imagine it.

From freshmen orientation to final examination, unforgettable moments

2010-08-18T06:48:00.000-07:00

The old woman inside the photo was my English lecturer, Madam Tan. Unfortunately, to day was our last day to attended to her English class, after today, I may not find other English lecturer like Madam Tan, the lecturer who really put a lot of afford to teach her students.

Time really ran so fast, don't realize that my first semester already reached the end, now just waiting to sit for final exam. Haiz ~~ Still remember the first day I attended to TAR College for the Freshmen Orietation, what a unforgettable moments, it's all valuable, and most probably will not happen again in our life anymore.

If you ask me the question "What have you learn in your first semester?" , most probably I will answer "the correct way to study and the right attitude in learning" . Honestly, I felt that I was failed, I have fail completely for being a college student, a son for my parents, and also a responsibility boyfriend for my girlfriend. I really don't think I have already try my best in this semester, besides that, my behavior is worse, as worse as a jerk. I felt shame about my behavior, I don't even want to let other people know how was my behavior in college.

Whatever, that's already a past tense in my life, useless to talking about it right here. What should I concentrate in right now is my final examination, because that's what on forward. I can't change what I did in the past, but I can make a difference in my final examination, perhaps I want to. I don't want to make anymore commentary right here, unless I do what I want to do, perhaps I really try my best to do what I should do for the final examination. Distinction? By logical, I don't think I can get it; But, by mentally, I really want to get it. I think, therefore I am.

Commentary about the world that I belongs to

2010-08-11T21:04:00.000-07:00

After reading several number of books of philosophy, I think I'm already learned somethings from that, it's make my thinking became mature, my mind was opened widely. Maybe some of you will think that I was talking a cock and bull story here (in certain way I was) , but that's the reason why blog exist right? Perhaps it's not, then what for blog exist?

Recently I realized that the world we living in now is getting worse and worse, human became selfish, arrogance, self-centred, narcissistic and so on. Many of the younger generation may think that this is what we need to survive in this competitive world, it's not true at all. In the few decades in past, children will not cheat or lie to others, they can think maturely and behave as a child. But if we study about the children in now, we will be surprise, children in this generation used to cheat and lie to their parents, their friends. Some of the rich children even looking down of people who is poor even they are just a 5 years old child.

In my opinion, if we really want to change the world, to become a world which is healthy and harmony, we should do somethings. What we have to do is we have to give our new generation a positive thinking, we should let them think positively, but not just tell them what should they do. Parents should teach children in thinking, but not action, if we only tell them what to do and doesn't try to understand why they do so, we could not make children get better. In facts, it will make the situation getting worse.

Conclusion is, if we want the world get better, we should start from our thinking. We will not change the world to be better if we don't have the positive thinking and philosophy to being a human.

What's on my mind nowadays ??

2010-08-01T09:33:00.000-07:00

What's in my mind nowadays? College's stuff? Girl friend? Money? Honestly , I don't really know what am I thinking, everything was just too messy on my mind, its just like things floated everywhere on my mind, messy, random and unpredictable .

I'm reading some books which is all about philosophy and existentialism nowadays, when I started to read, then only I realized that my thinking was too naive compared to those great thinker. What I thought in my past 18 years was only those facts that majority of people thinking, things that everyone knew and think with same ways.

What's wrote in philosophy's books were different, I dare to say it's completely different. In those books, I learned to think in other ways, think somethings that I've never expected before, learned what I can't learn in college, somethings that priceless.

Maybe some of you will thought that I'm talking nonsense here, I will not blame them, because that's exactly what am I doing right now. Since the first moment I started to type my blog here, I'm wasting my time, that's a fact that cannot be decline.

College's friends

2010-06-23T04:37:00.000-07:00

Everything is changed since I start my college life .
New friends , new subjects , new environment and also new style of study.

Felt that my English language is better than before
Thanks to my English lecturer .....XD

Beside that ,
I would also like to talk about those new friends that I've met in TAR College
All GUYS !!

How about girls ?? Erm ~~
Don't feel like they are my friends lo...
LOLXXX

BUT ......
There's one thing that make me nervous ....
that's is my financial difficult ....

I didn't get PTPTN ... Why ??
Thanks to my STUPID ATTITUDE !!!
didn't open a Public Bank account earlier...
yoohoo ~~~

But I will not getting too worry about that in this moment ,
now just want study harder in my 1st semester
and....
enjoy the happiness... other than that ??
Just temporary ignore it la ~~~~

Unforgettable memory

2010-05-08T06:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to a carnival which is organized by Oscar Education center . Really had an unforgettable memory on it , I was very enjoy on it .

Actually I will went there is because my lao po has been hired to working at there , so of course I won't give up this golden chance to spend time with my lao po . So I woke up early in the morning than went to Oscar Education center there help my lao po to prepare all those things .

Yesterday woke up about 6:30a.m , wash face and changed clothes , then went to Jia Qi's house . When I reached Taman Megah , I bought some dim sum for my lao po's breakfast . After that , Jia Qi fetch us to the center ( she so nervous when driving ) . When we reached there , I've been helping them to prepare lo , like prepare those game for the kids . I felt so heartache when I knew lao po has to take care of the "game stall" under the sun =( so I also keep on company my lao po a , help her to play with those kids . Lao po , I knew you're not purposely treat me that cool want , you just concentrate on your work and don't want Oscar misunderstand only , I truly understand want .

I was really enjoy on it , especially when I playing with those kids . Hope can take part in this kind of event again

Enjoy !!

2010-05-05T05:46:00.000-07:00

I really enjoy my recent life now , damn enjoy on it . Everything were going get better and better , especially the relationship between me and my lao po . Except this there's few other stuff that I was happy with that .

First , my driving lesson is going damn well , everything just going better than I thought . When I was driving , I really felt happy . And most happy is driving is much more easier that I thought , I think I can pass in once ..=) Hope so la .

Second , my "marriage" is getting better and better now , now I really felt that nothing can break us . Now I just wait for 4 years to graduate from collage>>working hard>>buy a house>>then propose to her . TIME !!! Move faster la !!!

Last , I'm going to start my collage soon , really can't wait to study there . I'll desire to study there not because of those girls at there or other , what's in my mind is only gain knowledge at there . I really wish that I could gain knowledge that really can bring me wealth in my future . Except this , I also can't wait to workout at the gym in collage . Really miss those workout feeling lo !!!

License Course

2010-04-11T01:24:00.000-07:00

Is me .. hahaha

Lao po so cute !!! muaxx muaxx

Act cute

Nice smile

lao po !!!

Today went to listen a course about the driving license , really so hot lo . But I really felt so enjoy during the course . Why ??

Haha !! The answer is.........

Because I met my lao po , 1 month didn't meet leh , miss her like hell lo ...
She became prettier and prettier leh ... hahaha ..:-P

Proud !!! Don't envy me ... hahaha

Today really so hot , felt like going to faint when we having the class outside there . Lao po not feeling well because of that lo .. :-(

The class finally end around 12:30 , then we went to the mamak stall there bought some drinks to "cooldown" . After that we go in the class room and thought can enjoy air-conditioner inside the container , But ......

The air-cond is NOT COLD AT ALL !!! OMG !!!
We just like staying inside a box with no air at all , felt like going to faint .
Lao po also not feeling well because of it . Damn It

So , we didn't listen the theory class at all . We chatting and taking photo all the time , enjoy lo . Actually I really wanna thanks to lao po and also Krystal , thanks for waiting for me . Thank you !!!

After SPM ..... is it everythings fine ??

2010-03-23T10:19:00.000-07:00

Last time

"After SPM then study collage then work then .......bla bla bla " That's what will I say if someone ask me what will I do after SPM .

During SPM

"I wanna study harder to get better result , then I can go study Marketing at UTAR there " I will answer this if someone ask me about my future .

After SPM

"Haiz ~~ see how about my result first lo , also don't know got 5 credits or not =( " I will begin to give a reason to escape the question when someone ask me about my future .

After SPM result release and I'm qualified to study at UTAR

I really confused about my future , not because of what course I want to study , but where should I study . There are all the collage that I'm interested in .

1st = UTAR

This is the University that I wanna study at since I was form 5 ( maybe not that early la ) , its have to study a year of foundation then three years of degree program . Erm ... The fees is quite cheap , foundation is around 7k and degree program is about 33k . The degree program's fee can get the loan from PTPTN , PTPTN can give a maximum 16k per year for the loan ( but it's based on the family's income of the student ) . But .... I have to go to Kampar , Perak . If I really study UTAR , I have to split with my lovely gf for 3 years lo , I don't want to split with her even just a moment , I wish that I could stick with her if I can . Hahaha !!

Beside that , my family will have to spend a lot of money as my living cost in Kampar , Perak . I really don't want they become so "san fu" lo , I don't want to give them trouble of money just because of my problems .

So , I Think I'm not going to study there .

2nd = KDU

I will choose this collage is because my gf told me she will go to KDU study also , some more it's so near from my house . But the fees is really really too expensive for me , 70k to get the degree cert lo . So I decided to choose another collage to continue study .

Final = TARC

This collage actually is a bit far from my house lo , luckily can go by LRT . I will study at TARC is because I have no other choice anymore , and Jit Pian , Eng Keat and Hoe Chong also going to study there . TARC can also provided a 3 months training in UK for all those person who graduate from Advance Diploma , but it's have to pay 30k ( not include living cost , except hostel fee ) The environment of TARC is really not bad lo , got gym , swimming pool , football field ....... bla bla bla . I feel that if I really study there is wasn't a bad idea lo , because all those students who studying there not like all rich people , majority of them is come from a normal family .

Most probably will study there =)

Just like what my gf said " 2010 really a bad years for us lo , have a lot of important decision to make =( . Why Malaysia don't just have 1 collage leh ?? Because really hate to choose lo , it's make me confused lo !! Heard some of my friends said that still confusing now , they don't know whether should them change school now .

Year 2010 ,

This year I make my gf cried a lot , feel so guilty now =( Lao po , I knew you still feeling so blur about your collage , I really shouldn't keep on ask you about that de . Sorry =) Lao po , I'll treat you the best I could , I will study harder if we really have to study separately , won't " yai yai " . I swear !!

There's a lot of problem here

2010-03-19T11:14:00.000-07:00

Having a really weird feeling recently .

Stress !! Moody !! Lonely !!

There's a lot of problems with me now , seems like luck is not on my side .
I'm afraid , afraid in everything .

First

I'm afraid that "she" can't study at UTAR ,
I'll worry in everything if she study at KDU alone .

Worry that we'll not that close if I study at Kampar ' Perak
Worry other guys will court her
Worry of her safety if she drive to school alone
Worry she can't understand what lecture taught her
Worry that she will be alone

Lao po , I really hope your mom will let you study at UTAR , here are the reason why

1. Jia Qi , Krystal and Shi Wei study there too
2. KDU's fee is about 30k more expensive than UTAR
3. You will study together with them in foundation
4. You can share a room with them if you go to study at Kampar's campus
5. You can be more concentrate on your study at the country place like Kampar , Perak

Second

I'm worry about the money now

If I really study at UTAR , I have to pay for foundation's fee
Its about 7k

Loan from PTPTN ??
Its only can apply for degree's program
Means ...
I've to pay by my own

But ,

My family is not rich ,
don't know parents got extra money to spend on it or not

How ??

Ask my aunt sponsor me ??
Borrow from them ??

I'm confusing !!

Third

My personality

Realized that I'm a weird person i ,
I got a lot of bad stuff , for example ;

1. Always be late and need people wait so long everytimes go out
2. No mercy to all the bad luck's people
3. Not enough responsibility while doing something
4. Not gentlemen at all
5. Lazy

*still got many more*

One more thing ,
Do you all really wanna to go Penang on next month ??
If all of you really want , then I've to plan about that .

~ That's all ~

What a bad news =( Have to study at UTAR

2010-03-16T08:46:00.000-07:00

Its really a very bad news , I can't study at KDU with my lao po anymore , I have to study at UTAR . Actually I really wanna to study at KDU want , but based on my financial problem , I really can't afford to study there . Today I went to KDU and really ready to register already want , but then I didn't make it after the officer told me about the fee , I really realize that I can't afford that . The diploma program is about 33k for 2yrs and 4months ; then degree program is about 37k for 2yrs somethings . PTPTN can only let you loan for either diploma or degree program only , and its can't like get a full loan somemore , I have to pay some of that and my family really can't afford that .

After that I went to UTAR also to get some information about the fee all those . If I study at UTAR then I have to take 1 year foundation first , then after that go to Kampar , Perak to continue my degree . The fee of foundation is about 7k and can't loan from PTPTN , then 3 years of degree is about 33k and it can loan from PTPTN . The maximum loan can get from PTPTN is 16k yearly , but its depend on family's income . About the first year's fee , parents said they still can help me , they told me not to worry about that . They told me if I really going to continue study then must study damn hard to make sure the PTPTN won't suspend my loan .

Actually go to UTAR is a confirmed decision and I don't think it will change , but I really feel so upset with that . Not because of my result or about the money , its about my gf . She told me her mom not allowed her to study at UTAR , so she might study at KDU . Honestly I really wish that I could study at KDU together with her , but I can't . 3 years is like quite long time for me , just like what she wrote in her blog " love can be change by time , environment and people surrounding " . I doesn't mean that I'm not believe in her or I'll fall in love with another girls , but it will really cause us not that close if we're not see each other often , I'm really afraid to lose a such best future wife like her , I'm really worry !!

Now I just hope that her mom will allow her to study at UTAR . Lao po , tell her that Krystal , Shi Wei , Jia Qi and me were going to UTAR and all of us also going to Kampar , Perak . If your mom not allow you to study there just because of me , then its really worthless . Compare to UTAR , KDU is 30k more exp than UTAR and both of that is actually for the same level of certificate - degree . If your mom thought you can't study hard if we're in the same collage , then just ask her give you a try to study at UTAR for foundation first , if really not good then only study at another collage lo . If your mom is worry that you will stay with me and we will make " mistake " , I can swear to her I won't . You can ask her bring you to check monthly to see weather we got do anything that are "too much" . I can't study KDU is because of the problem of money , but you're different , you can choose . I really wish your mom can really let you decide you path by your own . Because I really felt that is really worthless to pay 30k more to study at KDU just because of me or the location lo .

I've decided to study st KDU

2010-03-14T10:13:00.000-07:00

Maybe all of you will like " walao , Boh Ying study where then you just follow , no future la you " , or maybe some will say " don't just force yourself to study in private collage that you can't afford the fees " . But I've really decided to study at KDU with her .

I don't want to hide anyone of you , she were the main reason that I wanna study in KDU , because I wanna stick with her , I wanna see her pretty face everyday and I really wanna study hard together with her . But .... It's still some reason make me have this decision , it's about money .
Some of you might say " no money then study at UTAR la , why choose the private collage which need about 50k to study ?? " They will say " UTAR only about 30k la , why don't go there ?? " But they will never think about " how I keep my life if I study at Kampar , Perak ? " I bet if I tell then like that they will say something like " aiyo , ask your parents give money to you lo , or work part time lo . "

Haiz ~~~ I don't think they will say something like that if they knew about my family's finance . My family's income is about 4k monthly ( daddy and mommy added together ) , and they got a lot to pay like phone's fee , electric fee and all those other's thing like house payment , car payment and also food bla bla bla la . I just don't want them to get extra money for my living cost if i study at Kampar , Perak . I started to work since I was form 4 , the reason I'm working is because I wanna spend myself , I don't wanna ask money from parents anymore .

About the study fee is really not a big deal to me , because I'm gonna to get a PTPTN no matter where I'm study at . If PTPTN reject my application , I'll no gonna to study anymore . Study at UTAR or KDU is actually the same in finance problem la , no ptptn then go UTAR also can't afford de la . Then why I don't want stick with my lao po leh ?? Is it ??

Actually I really wanna apologize to my pretty lao po lo , I make you cry =( lao po , I'm sorry . I will study very very hard when we study together , I want teach you to have #1 class honour graduate de , I pronise . Lao po , I'm not going anyway anymore , we won't split want . I'll prove everyone that I go there study . So you faster faster register for it la , then I can "fong sam"

I love you

16/3/2010 .. Judgement Day

2010-03-03T08:20:00.000-08:00

Its already 4th of March , its getting closer to the day of SPM result release date ( 16th of March 2010 ) . I think almost every examiner of spm 2009 will be nervous about it ( except those who are decided not to continue their study ) To me , the result is really so important to me , its my future and everything . I knew to many people study at collage or university is just like study at secondary school , the certificate is not really a big deal to their future , they can still use LV , Prada , AX , Gucci and Fred perry etc even they can only get 2000+ for their salary . ( because their family are rich ) But to me its a totally different story , I need that certificate to change my fate . I'm not living in a rich family , I step into this social to work since I was 16 years old to earn money for myself . Actually I'm quite enjoy with those experience like go to gym after school , then workout few hours then went home prepare to work . Its make me spend my time well , didn't waste my time at all . I think I will be so busy when the SPM result released , I have to apply for collage and also a loan from PTPTN , I've decided to study at UTAR if my result allow me to do that , and I will maybe take Marketing for business or either Banking and finance ( if Banking and Finance didn't use alot account ) . I really hope that everything can going well , hope that I can study at UTAR , because its like the only chance to change my life , the only way that I can debit all the promises that I ever give to my gf . GOD BLESS ME !!!! PLZ !!!!!!

Driving course ( BORED!!!)

2010-02-27T01:36:00.000-08:00

Today finally went to listen for the driving course ( don't bullshit if you already went for it ) . It really bored when the instructor was talking in front with all those things can be read from the book ( mean instructor is actually useless ) . I met a new friend during the course , he is a University Malaya's study from China , Beijing . When our course ended , he went to play with people's motorcycle . He rode the motorcycle and drive around the learning center ( luckily nobody realize it ) . To take the test , I have to wait about a weeks before it for the certificate ( to prove that you attended the course ) . After that still have to listen another 12 hours' s course , 6 hours for car , and 6 hours for motorcycle's . Then after that only I can learn how to drive for 8 hours , then only I can take the JPJ's driving test . After everything has done , I think still have to wait about 1 month to get the P license . I'm think I can't get my license before my birthday , hope can get it before that , just like sending a gift to myself . Hahaha

Chiness New Year ?? Valentine's Day ??

2010-01-29T07:58:00.000-08:00

Still got about 2 weeks is already Chiness New Year , but I still don't have the mood to celebrate it . The first day of Chiness New Year is Valentine's Day , also don't know whether is good or not lo . But it's doesn't matter to me , because I'm already decided to working on that day , I mean 14th of Feb . I didn't ever celebrate Valentine's Day before , this year I finally have a gf can celebrate with , but she can't go out because of Chiness New Year . It's really faith lo , I think maybe I still can't have the chance to celebrate my Valentine's Day . Actually I've already bought a present for my lovely wife for Valentine's Day , its then most expensive present that I ever bought for anyone , hope she will like it . Nothing to say anymore , wait for my next post . XD

My life is bored :-(

2010-01-20T07:30:00.000-08:00

Feel that my life is getting bored now , I have no time to go to GYM or do another thing . My life is just working then sleeping ; then wake up and working . Haiz !! Who ask me need money meh , house also not rich like other , what I want also have to get it by myself . Sobxx :-( Feel that I am not that close to my friends now , because we have really less time to talk to each other or go hang out with them . And the most important thing is so difficult to meet my lao po since we all graduate from secondary school , feel like time doesn't move when I can't see her face . Now I just wish my result of SPM will allow me to get the loan and study in UTAR , then will have more people come to One Utama's Speedy shop to spend more money ( because I can get commisen from it ) . And also hope that I can have enough money to have my own car as soon as possible .

I'm worry about you li !!!

2010-01-14T08:58:00.000-08:00

Krystle told me that got some "lala zai" disturb you during the course , Krystle also told me how they disturb you . I was so mad when I heard it , just feel like wanna take their head ( who disturbed you ) to hit it on the wall as strong as possible . Feel so guilty because I can't be with you when someone is disturbing you , SORRY !! Lao po , do you know I really worry about you lo , I'm afraid that you will let people bully or disturb when I'm not around you . Lao po is a very pretty girl , I'm not suprise if people star on you . But , I can't let them disturb you , even just ask about time also I not allowed . You may say I'm selfish , yes I am . Lao po , if you reading this then I COMMAND you can't go shopping alone even you have reached 21st , must ask me go with you or with a gang of friends that with some guys . You also can't drive alone after 8pm no matter what happen , just call me to fetch you . Be my wife got many rules to follow want , next time only continue la . Now wanna go get into sleep already , tomorrow still have to work fullday .

I just wanna be with you

2010-01-09T09:26:00.000-08:00

lao po , I LOVE YOU !!!

Yesterday went to 1u with my lao po (9/1/2010) , quite bored because she came at 7p.m , we just walked awhile and watched a very x10 funny movie named "Old Dogs" . Even though that , both of us were still very enjoy about it ( many shame's things happened to me ) . Actually while first moment I knew that she will go that that late I really felt so upset and like no mood to go anymore . She stay in Puchong and I stay in Petaling Jaya , because of no transport , so we're very difficult to meet each other ( it's all my fault that didn't save money for driving license last time ) . So everytime we got chance to go out , I will try to make it early in the morning and go home as late as possible , so that we could stay together longer . Everythings will be fine while she were beside me , no matter how bad it was . Once she is beside me , that only the moment I can feel that my life is meaningfull and truly happy , I hope time can be stop while she is beside me , because I really hated that feeling that you have to say "GOODBYE" and walk away from me , I HATED IT SO MUCH !!! I knew some people will thought that I so sticky to you , just like a magnect that always wanna stick with you and didn't do my own stuff well , even myself also feeling that , but I really can't control myself . My lao po is a very pretty lady , she got good family background and her mother tought her so well , she just like every guy's dream girl ; How about me ?? I just a ugly guy with dark skin , my family is not that rich , I'm just a norma very normal guy . It's a maricle for me to have this type of girl to be my girlfriend , it's something unbelieveable to other people . We had been couple for 7 months , maybe it's so short for some other people , but I'm truly love her so much until can't let her leave away from me . Do you know I will be so comfort and happy when we were together , we can play to each other even chatting through a phone call . I'm not that kind of person who will think properly before I did somethings or make decision , she were the person who make me became mature and learned to think properly before I make a decision , she were the person who make me plan about my future , my ambition or even my money . She were the MOST IMPORTANT person in my life , I will not gonna to learn about how to save money , how to use the money well . Sometimes I will thinking what will happened if last time I didn't get her phone number from Felix and I didn't try to send message to her . Will she still become my girlfriend ? Or will we still be friend ? No body knows . What I knew is my life will sucks if she never appear in my world , I guarentee I will stop my study after form 5 , I will not save money , and also not thinking about my future at all . Actually I felt a bit guilty to my lao po , because I didn't really treat her so well while we just start our relationship as couple , I always thought that she are not really love me at that time and I felt that I'm not qualify to be her boyfriend . Because of my unconfidence , I did a lot of things that hurted her , disappointed her . Lao po , I'm so SORRY , you can do any punishment to me if you reading this , is ANY !! Now our relationship can finally called STABLE , or maybe STRONGHOLD , and I've sweared that I will not do anything which my lao po dislike or anything can hurt or disappoint my lao po , I want marry her and build a family which is full of happiness with her ( not that soon la of course ) , I wanna love my remaining life to love her , protect her and take care of her . If lao po you're reading this , I hope you can be confidenced with me , don't always think that I will leave you , I WON"T !!! I SWEAR !!! It's really so sad while you're not confidence with me . LEE BOH YING , I LOVE YOU !!!

9/1/2010

2010-01-09T08:26:00.000-08:00

Today is Tse Hui's birthday , we not really go celebrate for her ( I mean our gang la ) . All of us have to work and some of that really no money to go out ( just like me ) . Luckily Jeh Ying and some of her another friends were going out to celebrate for her ( actually some is going to class gathering want lo ) . I joined them around 6p.m lo , then after that me and Tse Hui go find Shi Wei . After that we back to " Wong Kok " to eat the cake that Tse Hui's friends bought for her ( actually I also got share together want ) . After that some of them is leaving and some of them is going to their class gathering . So , I'm became alone again . I walking alone with no direction and target until I get a phone call , a phone call for my lovely wife . She told me that she arrived and ask me to wait her at Shi Wei's workplace there , I was so happy at that moment . While I saw her at that moment , I really don't know how to convey my feeling , it's was so happy . After that we go shop awhile to look for present to Shi Wei and Jia Qi ( for last year's birthday ) , finally we bought a black colour purse to Jia Qi and Shi Wei's present still searching . After that we go watched a movie named "Old Dogs" in TGV ( kolot punya tempat ) , and the movie is really make us laugh like crazy ( even we in the cinema at 8pm for a 7:30pm's show ) . After that we go shop awhile then her sister called her to tell her they had to leave ( really feel like don't want let her go want lo ) , and i forgotten to get my wallet back from her . That's what happened to me in 9/1/2010 .

Back to school ??

2010-01-04T06:12:00.000-08:00

Today is the day of school reopen , I guess many students will feel unusual and unhappy lo . Haha !!! But I think still got many people will enjoy about it want , especially all the Standard 1 students , they sure be very happy that finally study at primary school . Haiz !! Can't get into school anymore now li , I mean can't get back to S.M.K Taman SEA and study at 5 Kemboja anymore li . Actually I not really have much more good memory in that school lo , my highlight in that school is meet my lao po , meet the most important girls in my life . Sometimes really miss the feeling while I courting lao po in school , really many things happened between us de lo , I still remember the first day I saw her in Chiness class while I'm form 3 , I totally attract with her at that moment . That school really give me a lot of good memory , I meet all my good ji mui there , meet my lao po there . Life really pasted so fast , now we can't like meet everyday and chick chat together everyday now . I think I will miss all those good memory that ever happened to all of us

Finally got a job

2010-01-02T09:09:00.000-08:00

Today is my first day to work at Speedy , quite enjoy and its more relax than I expected . Actually not really need to server the customer , what I have to do is to arrange all the disc and remember where they are . First day work really can't remember all lo , when the customer ask me about the disc , I was like stunned . My supervisor is a man named Gary , he is so nice and very funny ( but looks emo ) . This job is really enjoy and also very relax , all the worker is so nice and funny . I think I will be so happy to work there .

First day back to Camel Active

2009-12-28T07:53:00.000-08:00

Today just went back to jusco's Camel Active work , everything like changed but not really change . Actually I'm not really interest to work there want , feel damn bored and lifeless while working there . Actually I just work there while I'm waiting for my second interview from Celebrity Fitness centre . I really not be serious while working there since 6pm I in there , just hide inside store room and chatting with my friends there . Haiz !! Really hope Celebrity Fitness will call me as soon as possible and hire me ... GOOD LUCK to myself !!!

The changing of my life

2009-12-26T02:04:00.000-08:00

SPM is over , my secondary school life is also finally over , everything about my life is changing right now . But my love to my lao po is always the same . Haiz , feel so guilty to my lao po li , because last time I didn't keep money for my driving license when I was working last time . Lao po , I truly truly so regret right now . This few days keep looking for job , must get a job before 1st of January 2010 . Lao po is already told her parents that she couple with me right now , they didn't scold or say anything , just say be " friend "( mean couple ) no problem , I think they were warn us to not to do all those things that are too over ( I guess you should knew what is that right ? ) . I can't be still like a child anymore , can't throw all those problem to my parents anymore , I have to handle all those problem by myself right now . If I get the job then the salary must be manage it so well , and I'm already to let my lao po manage it for me ( I'm really very x 10 serious about it ) . If the salary is about RM 1300 , then I will give RM 300 to parents and RM 700 to let lao po keep . I think I will open a acc to let my lao po hold the acc book and also the ATM card . I can't simply use the money like before already , if not I can't give lao po a good life in the future . My life will totally be different in a future , my responsibility is getting bigger right now , is not only to myself and my parents , but also to my lao po . I knew we just couple for less than 7 months , but I'm really really love her so deep , I wish I could give her a future , give her her dream life in a future . I really want to marry her , want her to be my wife , want to have a good family with her . So what I want to do now is get a job , get a driving license and save money to buy a car . Now we can't meet everyday like in school already , we will miss each other when we can't see each other . Actually I really hate that feeling of can't see her lo , I really feel like hell when I can't see her , everytime we meet I also hope time can be stop at the moment , because I really hate the feeling when I have to say the word "GOODBYE" to her . Lao po , if you reading this then I want say sorry to you , sorry that didn't save money last time . Its my fault to cause we can't meet each other , just put the blame on me . Lao po , I'm sorry .

When will they call for second interview ???

2009-12-25T04:32:00.000-08:00

SPM is already end about more than 2 weeks , not really done much more things , just went a prom and keep on go out . Everyone were already became so poor because of the prom , some more that's not really a very good prom . This few days just keep on looking for job , finally me , Jit Pian and Hoe Chong interviewed for vacancy in Celebrity Fitness . Me and Jit Pian applied for a position of greeter , and Hoe Chong interviewed for some position that do paper work . The salary was really not bad , but sometimes have to work at 5:30 am and sometimes have to work until 12am . 3 of us already passed the first interview and we're actually waiting to been inform for the second interview which will be do at Mid Valley there . Really hope the second interview can be done as soon as possible lo , and also hope that will hire me , because I really need money and really interested in that job

Prom Night

2009-12-21T10:07:00.000-08:00

Two handsome guys

Jit Pian like so emo . Scare me ??

My wife and my " xun lui "

Me and my " xun lui "

Lao Po please stick with me forever

Our sweet memory , love my wife forever

Muaxx muaxx , lao gong love you forever

Handsome ??

My beautiful wife .. Muaxx Muaxx

Secretly took inside toilet want . haha

Lao po you're mine

Miss you li lao po :-(

Not enough bright

I will always looks happy if you with me

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

Its finally over , our S.M.K T.S Prom Night 2009 is finally end . Felt like time really passed so fast , last time still thinking about SPM , but now even prom night also end already . After today we are not a form 5's students anymore , what waiting for us is another different path way of life , everything will be changed . ( Except our friendship and my love to my wife ) Today not really so fun to me , feel like nothing to do there also . But overall still feel not that bad la . But at the moment they voting for prom queen and prom queen I really feel quite hard feeling , because they requested all the nominated prom queen act to propose to the nominated prom queen . Eventhough my wife's partner is my classmate - Travis , but when they acting that time I really damn hard feeling , really feel like wanna to stop them lo , every words they said when they act really make me feel like hell lo . ( lao po , I knew you also forced to do that de , I won't blame you ) Haiz ~~ miss my wife so much leh !!! Feel like wanna give my lao po a hug , wanna hug her tight . ( but also no chance ) . When we going back that time , I just can't control myself to keep on looking at my wife , really hope the trip can be longer and longer . I wish she will know how much I love her and how much I miss her right now . ( more photo please find in facebook )

Finally settled ~~

2009-12-18T07:58:00.000-08:00

Just now suddenly been informed that our transport for prom night having some problem , nobody can fetch us go there and go back already . OMG !!! So we guys having a discussion in msn just now to discuss about this topic . All of us are getting mad during the conversation , all was starting to blame on each other and keep on type some unpolite words like "wtf" . Haiz !! I've ask Khai Chun to fetch us back , but he is taking his car to repair tomorrow , don't know whether can get it done before Monday or not . When I tell them then all starting to blame on me , really getting mad on that time lo . Then at the end my dad said he will fetch me if really nobody fetch us . SETTLED !!!
So the conclusion of the discussion is we guys go there by taxi or lrt , back home by Khai Chun or my daddy . THAT'S ALL !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks to Hoe Chong

2009-12-17T07:47:00.001-08:00

Just now went to pasar malam with Hoe Chong , Jit Pian and also Eng keat . Before we go to pasar malam , Hoe Chong spend us a table of food . He just feeling so happy since Tuesday , don't know what happened to him leh ?? ( actually I knew want ) After that we go pasar malam walk awhile to looking for belt , four people walk pasar malam in the rain . ( looks like gay lo ) All of them bought a belt then we also go back from there .

I will always love you

2009-12-17T07:41:00.000-08:00

Lao po !! I will always love you want , won't ever do anything that you don't like or will hurt you . What I promised you is really serious want , even some of that is about our future want . Still remember the "package" that I offered to you ?? Is always ready for you and only for you . Really miss you so much now li lao po , hope I can see you now . Lao po I love you . Muax muax

Another happy day !!

2009-12-16T06:14:00.000-08:00

Last picture when my wife leave

My wife looks so nice

Wanna look to each other de , but my wife keep laughing

My most beautiful wife ... Muaxx

My "xun lui" krystal

My best "ji mui" Jia Qi

See !! we bought a lot

Wao !! pretty girls , the green colour want is the prettiest .

Shy !! but really feel so sweet

I like the feel when we look at each other , but only see her half face

sweet !! but my emotion like so bad

Our first exchanged rings.. Sweet !!

Our rings

Just wish we can hold each other forever

What they seeing ??

My another good "ji mui"

Hehe ... our nice shoes

My wife's hand pain li >< sad

the action that I like the most

Capture me ?? capture you first

Aiya !! stick wall d

Nothing can separate us !!!

My wife said looks cool wor ... haha

Happy happy happy happy !!!!!

2009-12-15T07:18:00.000-08:00

Before

After

My wife's shiny watch and my "Rolex"

My wife & my stuff ( so little only )1 , 2 , 3 ... smile

Did I looks handsome ??

Hahahahaha !!! I can't describe how happy I'm right now , something really meaningful happened to me just now . Wanna know what is that ?? SECRET ^-^ Today finally bought my prom's clothes , G2000 leh . I tried it once I reached home li , took some photo also li , hahaha . Just now I did not argue with Shi Wei they all li , beside that still so friendly with them li . Hahaha , don't know why now I really feeling damn happy lo . Tomorrow will be going to shop again li , sure have a lot of memory again . Hahaha , now feel like wanna go sleep now , tomorrow still have to wake up early . I can't let them say I always late anymore , must be the first person reach there . Hahahahaha

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

2009-12-12T22:59:00.000-08:00

Really need money so much right now !! Not just because of to buy clothes all those things , why I want money is to get my driving license . I don't want keep on ask my cousin or my parents fetch me go around anymore , it make me looks like a small child , like I'm useless . I really hope I can get my driving license too , but I can't , because I have no money to get it . Haiz ~~ That's why I always say money is everything , without money , we get nothing .

Can I do anything for her ??

2009-12-10T23:09:00.000-08:00

Just read "her" blog and knew that something quite unhappy happened on her , her mom rejected what she wanna to do , she had been argue with her mom about this stuff . I don't really about the detail , but from what she wrote in her blog I can feel that she were so disappointed and upset . I don't what they said to each other just now , but through the blog I can understand what her mom want . I guess her mom is getting annoy to fetch her go here go there , that's why she will ask her to get the driving license as soon as possible . I guess her mom not really not allowed her to work , maybe just because her mom don't want let her spend too much and want her learn how to save money . From other angle , her mom also do that for her own good , but just used the hardcore way . ( all also I guess only la ) called her just now but no body answer the phone ( maybe get tired for cry then fall as slept ) . Haiz !! why last time I did not save money from my salary ?? If I did not spend all of that then I can get my driving license already , then I can be her driver to fetch her go anywhere she want . I guess what can I do now is comfort her and chat with her only , that's only things that I can do for her now . EDWIN SOON !!! YOU ARE REALLY USELESS !!!

Prom Prom Prom !!!

2009-12-09T21:07:00.000-08:00

SPM is almost end , still left Geography and Chiness paper to take only . Actually almost all of other students already end their SPM , but my class damn "kesian" lo , have to wait until 15th of December for the Geography paper . Nobody will study hard now already want lo , what everyone talking is not about exam , is about prom . Prom is seted on 21st of December , still got 11 days before it . Feeling damn nervous right now , because I'm too fat right now . I'm afraid that I can't get stronger before prom . Hope I can control myself and the "Lipo 6" can really help me a lot lo . Except nervous , I was also so excited right now , because I can finally go out with my pretty wife . Can't wait to shop with her li , wanna buy clothes together with her . haha !! Don't know what style of dress will she wear for prom leh ?? But i knew what style also so pretty want ...XD haha!!

Am I really lost myself ???

2009-12-01T21:00:00.000-08:00

So disappointed to myself now . Suddenly feeling so lonely , like nobody I can talk to right now , all I can do is just write everything here . Yesterday didn't study at all for today's science's papers , when I reached school early in the morning , I was like walk into a strange world that I never know. All of my friends just discussing science , all of them just try their best in the examination . Really feel that I'm alone at the moment , because I'm the only person who are not study at all , the only one that not understand what are they talking about . I not even dare to join them , because I'm afraid that I will disturbed them .

When having paper two that time , I simply do all the question , not even have one question that I can confirm the answer . All I can do is just simply filled in the blank with anythings in mind at the moment . The paper is from 10a.m to 12:30p.m , but I'm already done at 11:45a.m . I did not check my answer in the remaining 45 minutes , because I knew no matter how many times I change the answer , it will also wrong . What I did in that 45 minutes is keep on look at my gf and communicate with her , I told her I did not study science at all , even failed I also don't mind . Suddenly she told that " I feel like the Edwin that I like is lost " . When I heard that I really no mood at all , because I feel that she is right . The Edwin who will study before exam and teach her is lost , now this Edwin is only know play computer , sms with gf and play facebook . I also don't know since when I have became this , really don't know why I will became don't like study and ignore about my result !!! WHY !!! Sometimes I really don't know what I want , bought the protein powder and paid the gymnasium fee but did not go work out . Get a new desk in room for study but did not study at all . Say want give my future wife a perfect life but ignore about my result . Feel that now I was giving up myself , giving up everythings from myself . I really hope I can be last time that Edwin , just study , go gym , and work . Now I really feel so stress , still got three more subject to take , I will prove to my gf that the Edwin she like is never lost at all .

What am I doing now ??

2009-11-26T07:52:00.000-08:00

SPM is on now...Already took Math , Moral , English , BM and also History papers . Feel so disappointed to myself , because I didn't well in all those papers , especially Math . I always thought that I' so smart , even just study one day before exam also can get past . But I'm totally wrong , wrong so badly . I really not suppose just put my target as a credit or just past , I should get A . I really so regret that I didn't spend more time to study . Now still got 4 more days to prepare for Account paper , but I still not yet study . I still keep on play computer and go out , feel that I'm pushing out the gred A from myself .

SPM !!!

2009-11-16T01:41:00.000-08:00

2 days before SPM , getting stress and stress now . This few days just keep on focus on my history , I'm really regret that didn't study earlier before exam , now just can study from day to night , from night to day . I'm already can't get into sleep from 3 days , even study 5a.m I still not sleepy at all . Wednesday have to sit for Bahasa Melayu and History paper , Bahasa Melayu I'm not worry about it too much , what I worry the most is the history paper . I failed my History during trial examination , I really don't want fail any subject in SPM . SPM really so important to me , I really have to study at collage want . I'm not born rich , so i can't like others person that have a rich family to support them to collage or oversea to study . I can just get a loan from bank to continue my lesson if I can go to collage , so I must get a good result in SPM , if not the bank will not approve the loan for me to study .

Stress !!

2009-11-08T20:34:00.000-08:00

Today is 9 days before SPM , begin to worry about it.. But everytime I sit at the table , I'll only focus on the protein and keep on thinking about bodybuilding....haiz !!

The subject that I worry the most was Mathematic , so I bought this to learn back what have I forgotten about Math . It maybe too small for others , but its really useful to me....XD

See !! I bought all this revision book since long time ago , but all of it still like new want ...

SPM is getting closer and closer , everyone already study like hell now . But I'm still sitting in front the computer to online , play facebook , play warcraft . I really don't know what result I'll get in SPM with this type of attitube :(

Gym Gym Gym !!!

2009-10-29T07:18:00.000-07:00

Just now went to gym work out li
Feel so happy now li
But just now like not strong as last time li
Take so lightweight only li
Tomorrow must try to take heavier ...
Really hope I can get my protein sooner li
Have to wait until this coming wednesday li
Too long for me li ....
Tonight must sleep early
So that tomorrow can take heavier ...
Hahahahahaha
Really so happy li

2009-10-28T21:33:00.000-07:00

Today lao po sick d li ...
So did not go to school ...
Then I skip school also ...XD
Worry about her li ...
Always headache and feel like vomit ...
Now still get sick li ...
Don't know how she feel now li ??
Don't know she got go consult doctor or not li ?
Ah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Really worry bout her li ...
Called her also did not answer ..=(
Sometimes really wish that is I got allergy nose li ...
So that lao po don't have to feel headache and wanna vomit
Everytime heard she not feeling well really make me worry de li ...
Just hope her mommy can bring her receive the candle treatment as soon as possible

Life is really not so fair !!

2009-10-25T01:29:00.000-07:00

Now is the 8th of 九皇爷诞。。。
I'm already working at the temple for 8 days li ...
This 8 days really feel that not fair at all li ...
Sometimes really getting mad about it
All those adult just like to keep on command us to work
Then always like to give comment to our works
I really hate that !!
And what make me really mad is ...
Heard that some people get same or even higher salary than us ...
And they didn't even have to work ....
Just because they having relationship with some BOD
I don't is true or not la ..
But really getting mad when i heard it lo ....

What can I do ??

2009-10-20T02:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday chat with someone in MSN
Then my lao po mad on me about me..
She thought I care about the girl more than her
She thought I wanna court the girl
WTF !!!
I felt really upset that she will think that ...
Until now she still think that I will like other girls ??
I knew my image is like a playboy ...
I admit I like to chat with girls ...
But really does not mean that i wanna court them lo
Actually I don't have much more guys friends
Especially who have same topic with me ....
I don't mind if other people misunderstanding me
But I really feel so sad that my lao po misunderstanding me too lo
She should knew she is the only person that I like
The only person that I want to spend my whole life with
Can't she just trust me ??
I really don't know what can I do now lo
All I can do is going to school tomorrow explain to her

Neway again !!!

2009-10-16T08:35:00.000-07:00

Today I went to Neway with Tse Hui li !!
Reached there about 2:30p.m
When I go fetch Tse Hui that time really so funny li
My daddy thought I am a playboy li...
He said why go out with this girl want ?? Boh Ying leh ??
Then he ask me why keep going out with others girls de...
Then I told them we are only friends li...
My girlfriend were Boh Ying...
Hahahahaha !!!
So regret didn't book room yesterday li
Today rooms fulled when we reached there
Have to wait until 5pm only got room li...
So we go Popular Bookshop buy books ...
I bought some revision books to study li ...
Hope all those books can help me get good result in SPM ....

It's all about her

2009-10-09T12:11:00.000-07:00

Haiz !!
TM got problem again li
Can't online again
Even phone also can't use
I think maybe is because of the new building lo
Maybe they wanna apply phone line for the new building lo

This few days went to a lot of places li
Went to Neway with my mommy
Went to drink tea with Tse Hui , Nicole and my cousin
Had a BBQ party at my cousin's house
But i still feeling empty now
Don't know why keep feel like lifeless since lao po went to Seoul
Feel upset when my phone didn't receive new message from my lao po
Really miss her so much li
I think now she already sleeping like a pig li
The "lan fen g" that I love the most in my life
I guess she were truly enjoy this few days
Guess she were so shy when she went to spa
Guess she will so excited when she saw a lot of beg there
Guess she will felt a bit cold with there's weather
Don't know what she bought li ??
Don't whether Korean food suite her taste or not ??
Don't know she comfort with those strange pillow and bed or not ??
Don't know she got dreamed about me or not li ??
Don't know she got miss me or not li ??

BBQ !!!

2009-10-07T08:21:00.000-07:00

See my cousin...she just cook for her bf only de lo

Nothing to eat already lo..left chicken balls only

Hahahaha... my sister's "Black chicken"

Just now really so mad lo
My another cousin took my phone..
Then see my message...
Then read out loudly in front of my parents
I was really getting mad just now

I wanna go to gym li !!!!!!!!

2009-10-06T07:18:00.000-07:00

This body nice ??
That's my target li....
Wanna workout in gym li !!!!
Just wait for my salary come out
Now no money to pay for the fee
Ah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have to wait until 18th of Oct li
Sobxxx

Don't know Korea is what time now li ??
I guess lao po sure rest at hotel now li
I think today sure shop for whole day li ...
Don't know she got go to spa or not ??
Still have to wait for 4 days only she back li
Miss her li !!!

Boring !!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-06T01:12:00.000-07:00

Boring li !!!!!!!!!
Just came back from Neway
Nothing can do now
Haven buy revision book li...
Want study also cannot...
I think lao po sure so happy now li
Korea's weather sure so cold li
Not like here li
Here hot like hell li...

Lao po !!! I miss you li

2009-10-05T10:34:00.002-07:00

Can't get into sleep li
Miss my lao po so much
I think she sleeping on the plane now li
She is having a 5 days trip to Korea li
Saturday only come back
Haiz !!!
5 days can't chat with her li
I think I will became crazy lo
Anyway...
Hope she will enjoy the trip
And also buy some skirt for herselve
Lao po I love you

Haha !!! connection problem fixed

2009-10-04T22:33:00.000-07:00

Hahaha
My connection problem finally fixed
Finally can play facebook and update my blog
Having school holiday really boring li
Have to wait for my salary came out only can buy revision book
Maybe tomorrow will go Neway with my friends
Lao po will travel to Korea tonight li
Have to wait for 1 week only can chat with her
Hope she will enjoy the trip li
Hope Daddy will borrow money to me later
So that I can go workout at gym

Connection problem again !!! Sobxx

2009-10-04T02:07:00.000-07:00

Stupid TM net !!!
Can't access to internet again lo !!
Now want came to my cousin's house only can write blog
Damn mad now !!!]
Call they then said a lot of bullshit
At the end still can't fix it
Haiz !!!!!
Boring lo !!!
Tomorrow call them again !!!
STUPID TM NET !!!
Always got problem want !!!

Life must go on !!

2009-09-28T06:14:00.000-07:00

Finally back to school today ..
So happy that meet my lao po again..
During holiday really miss her a lot want li
Lao Po !!! I love you li !!
Today get those exam paper back li ...
Quite disappointed that i failed my econ ..
But others also got improved !!
So regret that i did not put much more effort on study
Luckly it's just trial....
Still have time to study....
I must put more effort on study from now on...
If not can't get loan to study collage...
STUDY STUDY STUDY !!!!!

Miss her a lot lo !!!!!!!

2009-09-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

Just came back from work
Finished my supper too
Today so free on working
But my mind don't ever stop
Just keep thinking about my lao po
Hand phone no credit already
Whole day don't chat with her already
Don't know what have she done today ??
Don't know will she miss me like I miss her ??
Don't know whether she can understand in tuition or not ???
Ah !!!!!!!
Really miss her a lot lo !!!
I like missed out a part of my soul
Lao po !!! I miss you
Just hope I can see you right now

2009-09-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

haiz ~~
Just came back from Sunway Pyramid
Hanged out with a gang of friends today
Quite tired right now
But not really enjoy about it
Maybe I preferred go out alone with my lao po lo
Don't like go out with a gang of friends anymore
Because make her treat me like normal friend
Maybe she shy or what lo
I understood it want
But sometime just make me moody
Make me like I am "lebih" want
So if next time my lao po wanna go shopping with them
I think I will not going if I got work
Because go there also nothing to do want
Better earn more money to let my lao po spend

latest picture

2009-09-20T08:08:00.000-07:00

long time didn't take picture d
The mannequin so funny is it ??
Hahahahaha
Today too boring then play with that !!!

Haiz !!!

2009-09-08T22:16:00.000-07:00

Today just sit for science paper examination
Almost 80% of those question i don't know
Just simply filled it up only
But i don't feel upset or unhappy
Feel nothing about that....
Maybe i really became worse
Became a lazier student
The examination is start for 1 week
I didn't had once that are prepare for it
I always tell parents i can get 1A if I study hard
But I don't even study at all
Today I want study harder and harder for tomorrow's paper
I wanna prove to parents and also myself that I can study
I can really get A if i study

I am freaking tired !!

2009-09-07T05:51:00.001-07:00

I am freaking tired now !!
Just came back from work
Today all those customer really drive me mad
All also come to play want
Keep fooling me like hell !!
Luckly i just work for weekend only
If not i will become crazy !!

I hated myself !!!

2009-09-01T23:09:00.000-07:00

Today when i walking back home with my friend
I told him that i felt that she don't trust me anymore
I told him that she don't like i get too close to other girls
But i still get so close to her friends
I thought we are just friends and she won't jealous
When he heard that he scolded me
He ask me think myself if the situation had changed
If she get so close to them then how would i feel
At the moment , i felt that i am a jerk
She really treat me so good
She don't ever get close to other guys
Never ever chat with a guy without telling me
Support me no matter what happened
But what have i done for her ??
I don't even buy anythings for her
Didn't do anythings that let her proud for me
I always tell her i want marry her
Wanna be forever with her
But i keep let her down
Keep doing somethings that hurt her
I am destroying our relationship by myself
I hope she can give me a chance
Just give me a chance to prove that i'm really love her
I' m seriously want be with her forever

I hated school's holiday

2009-08-26T04:08:00.000-07:00

Already 5 days didn't meet her li
Thought can concentrate to do my revision
But i can't !!
Not even have 1 day seriously study
Still keep play computer
Still always think about her !!
Really don't like holiday li
Can't meet all my friends
No body teach me homework when i don't understand
Hope holiday can end soon li

Congratulation !!

2009-08-06T05:11:00.000-07:00

Finally they became couple
Really unexpected it will be this fast
Can't expected he will ask her today
Anyway...
They were couple right now
Hope they will appreciate each other
Wish they can be forever

I am useless !!

2009-08-04T23:00:00.000-07:00

Haiz !!
Trial is getting nearer
Everyone already started their revision
But i still keep playing everyday
I can't play anymore
I must study from now on
Must study math and account
AH !!!!!
Really have to study now
If now they sure tease on me

Blame on me !!

2009-07-31T05:42:00.000-07:00

Sorry !!!
Really sorry that let you misunderstanding in this morning
I not suppose keep study and not suppose to me
But i really scare that i will left behind li
If i not concentrate in study
I scare that i will left behind from them li
I promiss you i must let you have a better life
I really want to prove it to you
Really want to let you live like queen
Lao po !!
Sorry !!

I must change !!!

2009-07-21T03:14:00.000-07:00

Just now sms with my lao po
Talk about end year's plan
Don't know want to go prom or have a trip
She said don't want go to prom
Because she care she will taller than me when she wear high heel
Quite sad when i saw the message
Don't feel like wanna talk to her after that
I know i not suppose to be like that
But just can't change
Every times also like that
I must change as soon as possible

I'm crazy about her

2009-07-18T18:13:00.000-07:00

Don't know what happened to me
All my mind is already full filled with my lao po
No matter what i did i will think about her
I will keep look at her when i saw her
I will imagine she beside me when i miss her
I think i wouldn't leave her no matter what happened
I don't think i could have normal life without her
Just wanna tell her that how much i need her
How much i love her
How much i miss her now
Really hope i can see her every moment
Even sleeping also wanna dream about her
Lao Po !!
I LOVE YOU

Our first picture

2009-07-11T05:43:00.000-07:00

This was our first piture
I knew i not looks so nice
But my lao po really looks so nice in this picture
Felt that i was a lucky guy
Can have this kind of pretty girl as my girlfriend
I must appreciate her

She finally kissed me

2009-07-02T01:37:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahaha !!
I was damn happy right now
Can't even stop myself to keep laughing
My lao po kissed me today
Hahahaha !!!
Said it for long time finally do it
Ah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Really miss my lao po so much right now
Lao po !!!!!
I LOVE YOU

Lao po !! i miss you so much !!!

2009-06-19T02:09:00.000-07:00

Just now i accidently found out somethings

Its were some old movie ticket and a reload card ...

The tickects were first time i watch movie with my lao po de

And the old reload card ...

I used it to reload and confess to my lao po ..

Lao po !!

i really kept all of our "first time " de lor...

I really care about our relationship de lor

Suddenly miss you so much !!!

Realyy hope can see you on tomorrow ...

oh!! yalo !!

Just now raining when you marching right ??

Did you feel not so well now ?

If you do then have to consultto a doctor ...

Hope you read this article lor !!!

Thank you !! My bao bei lao po !!

2009-06-15T06:13:00.000-07:00

My lao po finally forgave me ....

I am so happy right now ..XD

Actually before yesterday ...

i always thought that she not really love me ...

But i'm wrong ...

I'm totally wrong ...

Actually she really love me so much de lo ...

Today only i knew it ...

Beside that i would like to apologize to my "ji mui" and "girls friends "

Because from now on i wouldn't get too close to you all ....

Because my lao po might get mad if i did that ...

My lao po were too important to me lo ...

can't do anythings that will make her angry ...

Lao po !! I love you !!

My worse day !!!

2009-06-14T07:25:00.001-07:00

Today was my worse day
Lao po mad on me today
Actuallu today suppose to be our datting
But some bad situation happened
I did something really stupid
I miss the chance for meet my lao po
Just because for the movie
I am damn regret now
Wanna apologize to my lao po here ...
Lao po , i am so sorry about today..
i knew lao po try to make us have time to meet...
but lao gong didn't appreciate it.....
i am such a worse bf....
lao po i'm so sorry...

My 17's Birthday

2009-06-01T05:08:00.000-07:00

Today was my 17's birthday
How i celebrate it??
Erm...
Not really celebrate well
Just go 1u walk around with 3 of my friends
Present??
Don't really get anything
Not even have a cake to eat.
BUT...
This was the best birthday that i ever had
I finally make it
She accepted me
I was damn happy right now
Felt like i am dreaming
Wanna say thanks to all my "ji mui"
Because they make me have confidence to do that
Thanks to all my "ji mui" and friend that supported me
I will treat her all the best that i could
Wouldn't disappoint you all
Bao Bei Lao Po..I LOVE YOU

Believe it or not??

2009-05-30T10:24:00.000-07:00

The guy is taking picture alone and nobody behide him
Whar did you see??
You thought it was fake??
Try to zoom in and see..
Believe it or not??
Believe it~~

Take care your healthy

2009-05-29T09:07:00.000-07:00

Damn it
My Bao Bei is getting sick le
Headache and sore throat le
I knew headache is so painful de le
Really so "xin tong" lo
Also because of the stupid weather lo
Sudden hot then sudden keep rainning
Of cause get sick la
I hope my Bao Bei will recover tomorrow
All my friends must take care of your body lo
Please don't get sick

Big Plan

2009-05-28T21:03:00.000-07:00

I have decided to do that
To confess to her
Yesterday i told her about that
She said she not really ready for it
But i will still try
Because i am truly wanna be with her
Maybe the result doesn't like what i expeceted
But at least i try
So all my "ji mui" must cooperate with me oh..

I hate Moral's paper

2009-05-27T01:03:00.001-07:00

damn it..
i failed my Moral's paper..
i wrote the paper fulled but i failed , DAMN IT!!!!!!!!
i am so stupid that used wrong moral value next time must read the question clearly..
so happy that my bao bei pass lo
because i taught her the format want( maybe not because of me la)
and also congratulation to my ji mui , Tse Hui
finally she passed her moral...
i think i must study harder lo..
if not SPM will fail
once SPM fail sure no more future..
Must study harder after this holiday
GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What can i do??

2009-05-25T08:07:00.000-07:00

My birthday is coming, i feel like wanna confess to girl that i like for long time on that day..
Actually we already became so flirt in sms , she also knew that i love her since long time ago..
I called her as Bao Bei in sms , but she are not my gf yet
Actually i knew she is giving me chance to become her bf , but i always act like i don't care..
I said i will only request her to become my gf after SPM
Because i am afraid that i can't give her anything if i request her to be my gf now..
But i have changed my mind now..
Because i have realized that i can only be happy when i chat with her
Every bad feeling will lost once i received her message
I am afraid that i will miss out a good gf if i don't tell her how i feel now
But i'm afraid that it will spoilt the flirt relationship that we having
I don't know what can i do now.
Should i take a risk on it or maintain this kind of relationship??
Who can tell me??

Mapling..XD

2009-05-23T03:46:00.000-07:00

I think all of you will not feel not strange with Maple Story, alot of my friends always crazy about it. Before yesterday i really don't understand why they will crazy about is so much , so i played it last night. I play until today 5am since 11pm yesterday, finally understand why they crazy about it..i think i will love it in future...XD

Nightmare has gone!! Finally

2009-05-20T09:54:00.000-07:00

Exam finally end!!
my computer also fixed..
Every bad things already gone
now i can concentrate in gym
play poker in face book
and aslo sms with HER...haha!!

Stressed up for examination

2009-05-12T07:11:00.000-07:00

Exam exam exam!!!
i'm already sick about it.
Everyday have to study until midnight
Don't even have enough time for Gym
Hate it..